A Breeze-like Distance

The other day, when I went for a walk with my daughter.

As we walked side by side along the promenade, a breeze blew right between us. It felt strangely pleasant, and I thought to myself, this is a breeze-like distance.

My teenage daughter is at a delicate age right now. It's not that we don't get along. But there's something, how should I put it, that I can't quite step past. Something like a dull wall where you can almost see the other side, but not quite.

And I feel like, even as a parent, maybe I shouldn't try to step over or break down that wall. Maybe it's important to just watch over her.

That might make me sound like an understanding mother. But that's not it. It's more like I'm standing in front of the wall unable to do anything, and as a result, I can only watch over her.

And I don't even know if that's right or wrong.

I don't know if it's right or wrong, but I think maybe that's okay too...

Maybe writing is the same way.

It might be a common thing for writers on note, but don't people often say, "Lay it all bare"?

They say if you don't expose yourself, you won't reach the reader. You won't gain fans.

It's true. Articles I've written while crying, touching on the raw, stinging parts of my heart, do get more likes and views.

But I don't think that's the right approach for everyone. You can write interesting things without exposing yourself, and for some people, the stress of exposing themselves makes them unable to write at all.

In a world overflowing with information, I feel like we're being danced around.

Even though everyone talks about diversity, we still cling to other people's words and the circumstances around us.

We don't have to force ourselves to get close or conform to others; if the distance is comfortable for both of us, that should be enough.

Ah, I still can't put it into words well.
Sorry for being unclear.

I can't get my thoughts together, so I'll leave it at this for today.

#noteDeNoelLetter



▼ Participating in Rin Kiki's note de Noël. Day 13 Theme: Gentle Breeze