157. It's okay to fill your own heart first.

First, fill your own heart before heading to your child.

I end up making the child wait a little.

My children can't wait, so
they keep calling out to me while they wait.

That voice is painful, and I think, 'I'm sorry for making you wait.'

But even so,
it's better to fill my own heart first so that I can
face my child with more composure.
I can be kinder to my child.

Therefore, even though I make them wait a little,
I make it a point to fill my own heart before heading to my child.

Of course, in an emergency,
I will rush to my child immediately,
but for other situations,
I believe it's okay to make them wait a little.

It's okay to fill your own cup of happiness first.

When raising children, the child is the top priority,
and I tend to put myself last.

But it's okay to value myself more;

in fact, by valuing myself,
I can face my child with more composure,
which might actually lead to my child's happiness.

This is what I thought when I came across Masome-san's wonderful note.

If you put it in a diagram, it looks like this.

It's the same for children.

When they eat something delicious until they are full,
or when their cup of happiness is filled,
children have very happy faces.
Then, we who are around them also feel happy.

It's the same with notes.

Even when there is something I want to write,
I worry about what others will think,
and there are times when I hesitate to write.

I also received insights regarding that from Mashime-san's note.

Because I also want to enjoy writing notes and continue for a long time,
I want to value writing in a way that makes me feel 'comfortable and happy'.

I, too, want to believe that my own 'comfort and happiness'
leads to the 'comfort and happiness' of those who read it.

That is all.
Thank you for reading until the end.