Dyslexia: Misreading 'Lover' as 'Eccentric'

If I write that I misread 'lover' (koibito) as 'eccentric' (henjin), people will think it's a lie.
It is true that I often talk about delusions, but regarding these misreadings, it is the honest truth.
In fact, one type of developmental disorder is developmental dyslexia, and I have a tendency toward it.
Developmental dyslexia is called DRD (Developmental Reading Disorder) in English, and is also known as dyslexia.
Tom Cruise has publicly announced that he has dyslexia.

Since I have been officially diagnosed with pervasive developmental disorder (Asperger's on my medical chart) and ADHD, it is no wonder that I have developmental dyslexia.
Misreading is quite common among 'developmental disorder tropes'.
And so, I misread 'lover' as 'eccentric'.

When I am actually reading a novel,
whenever a 'lover' appears, it reads as if an 'eccentric' has appeared.
I even think to myself, 'Why is an eccentric appearing here?',
then realize, 'No, no, this is a lover, not an eccentric!'
So, a comedic routine of straight man and funny man occurs inside my brain over just a two-character word.

When I read both 'love' and 'eccentric', by the time my brain's synapses see the '亦' part, the priority candidate for the kanji has likely become 'eccentric' instead of 'love'.
In reality, the opposite—misreading 'eccentric' as 'lover'—does not happen.

I also misread 'romance' (ren-ai) as 'pervert' (hentai).
Even romance novels are automatically converted into 'pervert novels' inside my brain.
Even when something is introduced as a romance drama, I think of it as a pervert drama.
It is a strange brain.
In this case, too, 'pervert' is never converted into 'romance'.
Therefore, in my case, it is a one-way dyslexia: lover → eccentric, romance → pervert.

I feel self-loathing toward myself for misreading.

I wonder if it is truly dyslexia; I have other specific misreadings as well.
I think this happens not only to people with atypical development like me, but also to neurotypical people.

I think there are kanji that even ordinary people cannot distinguish.
蛋
蚤
The first character '蛋' is the first character of 'protein' (tanpakushitsu).
The second character '蚤' is an unclean flea (nomi).
However, in my case, just seeing the characters for protein makes me associate them with unclean fleas every time, so my brain gets tired.
Even when written in hiragana or katakana as 'tanpakushitsu', a flea pops into my head.

唇
蜃
The second character '蜃' is the first character of 'mirage' (shinkiro).
A '蜃' is an imaginary monster, a giant clam monster whose breath becomes a pavilion.
I associate the kanji for 'lip' (kuchibiru) with the monster '蜃'.

昂
昴
The first character '昂' is the bottom character of 'exasperation' (geiko), and is read as 'takaburu' (to be excited).
The second character '昴' is 'Subaru', a star cluster in Taurus. Its official name is the M45 star cluster, and its common name is the Pleiades star cluster.
If these two kanji are used, I don't mistake the meaning even if the wrong character is used.
However, when I see one character, the other comes to mind, so I feel like I am wasting my brain's energy.

冤罪
免罪
False accusation (enzai) and exemption from guilt (menzai) have opposite meanings.
I don't misread them based on context, but my brain is troublesome because every time I see 'enzai', I confirm it's not 'menzai', and when I see 'menzai', I confirm it's not 'enzai'.

鉄壁の壁 (The wall of an impregnable wall)
完璧の璧 (The 'heki' of perfection)
No matter what, they look like the same kanji to me.
Conversely, I have never once written them incorrectly.

Looking back now, I feel like I struggled to distinguish between b, d, p, and q, but fortunately, I don't think I had dyslexia in English.

Although, in my case, it might be misreading due to ADHD rather than dyslexia.
People who actually suffer from dyslexia say that letters appear flipped horizontally or vertically, which must be very difficult.
They also say that things appear doubled, distorted, or in the wrong order, so I might be being disrespectful by calling my own condition dyslexia.

I am definitely an eccentric and a pervert, but I would be happy if there were people who would misread me as a lover and a romantic.