The Choice of Love: To Me, Living While Wavering Even If Imperfect

In this world, everything is wrapped in love.
Love is always there.
However, within that love, we are always living while making choices.

A choice is not just a fork in the road of action, but an expression of consciousness.
Is it love or lack that flows through that choice?
By gazing at that, one's own 'way of being' emerges.

I had long been convinced that 'those who make choices not based on love are not qualified to be providers.'
And also, 'that is why I can never be like that.'

That is why I believed without a doubt that those who wave flags and teach others something
must all be people who make choices based 'only on love'.

But in reality, there were times when things didn't quite add up,
and each time, I blamed myself, thinking, 'Maybe my intuition is the one that's wrong...'
I thought the confusion I felt was due to my own immaturity and shortcomings.

But I was wrong.

No matter what position one is in, people sometimes make choices out of unconscious habits or fear.
This can manifest as a narrow perspective of 'I have no choice but to do this,' or
as an attachment to the past, thinking, 'I did it this way before, so I will do it this way now.'

It is only natural that choices are sometimes based on anxiety or lack, rather than love.
That is simply because we are human.

Oh... so that was it.
They are just like me.

'I have no value if I am not doing things properly.'
'I cannot be a presence of love if I feel anxious.'
I let go of the values I had been unconsciously clinging to and using to be harsh on myself.

A choice is also an encounter.
Who do you meet, what resonates with you, what do you forgive, and what do you let go of?
Everything resides in that one point: 'where you are choosing from.'

That is precisely why you must cultivate the power to align yourself and quietly sense that source.
Know what you possess, and refine the sensitivity to perceive in detail
what makes you tremble, what you resonate with, and what feels wrong to you.

This is not to discipline yourself strictly,
but a 'tuning of the senses' to become able to choose more freely with your own sensibility.

Love is always there.
However, only you can decide 'where you choose from.'

It is okay not to be perfect, to make mistakes, or to feel anxious.
What is important is to 'remember love and choose love again' as many times as needed.

I finally understood in the depths of my heart
that this is what it means to 'live based on love.'

This realization was a 'huge discovery for me.'
I let go of the belief that I had to be perfect,
and I will live with love, even if I am imperfect and wavering.

I was finally able to forgive that version of myself.
And above all, I am truly happy that I could write this down in words that came from within me.

That is fine, and that is good.
I am, just as I am, with love.