When you look at life from a bird's-eye view, you can usually laugh at it—the more unpleasant the event, the more delicious it is as a story

I admire clever characters.
Especially the type who can look at things from a bird's-eye view.

Izaya Orihara from "Durarara!!".
Hachiman Hikigaya from "My Youth Romantic Comedy Is Wrong, As I Expected."
Shogo Makishima from "PSYCHO-PASS".

—I realized something after listing them.
Wait, they're all a bit twisted.

What's good about them is that they have knowledge and use it for themselves
rather than for "righteousness" or "for someone else's sake."

At some point, I also started looking at things from a step back.
Even while in the midst of emotions, there is a part of me that thinks,
"This current development is interesting as a story."
I feel like that carries over into my conversations and this blog.

I end up looking at casual daily events

with a slightly cynical gaze.
That's why I'm often the only one laughing.
Perhaps I'm surprisingly calm

because I even view myself as "one of the characters."
Maybe that's why I don't feel much stress either.
Even when something unpleasant happens,

I think, "It's unpleasant for life, but it works for a story."
I can usually find amusement in any event.
However, in exchange for that,
there is also a part of me that is always looking for extraordinary developments somewhere.

If it's a daily life where nothing happens, I get a little bored.

But, personally, I don't dislike this way of thinking.
Actually, it's quite fun.

The feeling of weaving a story in the back of my head

while living in reality.
I think I will continue to

look at daily life with a twisted perspective,
give it meaning on my own,

and live by convincing myself on my own.
It might be twisted, but
for now, that feels the most right to me.