I started Zero-Second Thinking

I'll be honest.
My thinking has been in a slump for a long time.
I am in much deeper darkness than you, who always come to read my posts, might imagine.

I always feel a bit off during the summer, but lately my mental state hasn't been great either, and I've been having days where I can't even write proper notes.

To those of you thinking, "Wait, you've been posting every day regardless!"

Thanks to posting every day for five months, I can somehow manage to write articles.
It feels like I'm writing articles using muscle memory.
However, I'm not writing the kind of articles I want to, or the kind I idealize.
I feel sorry for those who read them, but the quality isn't high enough for me to give myself a passing grade.

Maybe I'm overthinking it, or maybe I'm not entirely wrong.

Either way, I want to break through this current situation.
I don't feel like reading books on writing theory will solve it this time.

As I was thinking that and looking at my bookshelf, I found this book in the corner.

I had bought it after seeing it in Ryoyan's article a while ago, but I hadn't read it at all.

Recently, Tsubasa Ito's article has become famous.

These two people I trust both say "Zero-Second Thinking" is effective. There's no doubt about it.

I finally got around to reading the book thoroughly.

And, on the very day I read it, I went to a stationery store and bought the following items.

• 500 sheets of A4 copy paper

• The pen recommended in the book as perfect for Zero-Second Thinking

I'll try it out right away.

The theme is dinner menu planning.

Following the rules written in the book, I'll write it out like this, finishing one sheet in one minute.

I chose an easy theme, but I still couldn't write much at all.
Actually, I wanted to write "cook 2 cups of rice," "cut the tomatoes," and "serve the peaches I received after the meal," but I only managed to write half of it.

Plus, since it's a scribble, my handwriting is messier than usual.
(This note is actually on the cleaner side, even so)

They say if you keep at it, you'll be able to write a lot more.

I tried writing down the dark emotions in my heart to vent them, and I managed to come up with five bullet points.

They are too dark to make public, but writing them down makes me feel refreshed. That alone seems to make practicing this Zero-Second Thinking worthwhile.

Expected effects

• Clearing your mind

• Gaining control over your heart and reducing stress and anxiety

• Training your 'thinking ability'

I have always been bad at revealing my inner self to others.
I have a tendency to seem like I'm being honest, while not actually saying what I really think.

Furthermore, I tend to put a lid on my own dark emotions and cannot face them directly.
I try to live in a way that seems clean.
When that becomes impossible, my mental health suffers.
Recently, the lid on my pent-up dark emotions has been floating up, and they are about to overflow.

I have always thought that I must do something before they overflow and hurt others.

With this Zero-Second Thinking, it seems I can calm my heart by writing down even my hazy emotions.

I can be honest with myself.
I won't have to put a lid on my heart anymore.
I can resolve my frustrations.

I felt attracted to that, so I decided to give it a try.

Will my note-taking speed actually increase?
Will I be able to control my heart?
Will I be able to clear my head and train my thinking ability?

For now, I will give it a try.

#66DayWritingChallenge