Loneliness

Sometimes, the little me inside my heart cries out

I want you to be with me,
stay by my side

and is weeping softly

Sometimes, such loneliness
makes my tears overflow

Is it from my childhood?
Is it from my twenties?

I felt a deep sadness,
linking back to the loneliness of that time

I wanted to rely on someone, but they weren't there,
I wanted to be spoiled, but they weren't there

They wouldn't reach out a hand to me

I wanted to be supported,
I wanted to lean on someone,
I wanted to be coddled

There is no one by my side

Scared, lonely, and in pain

There is no one to support me

Yes, all alone,
the loneliness of feeling isolated

It resonates with that loneliness
that has soaked into my body

Rising from the depths of my skin,
enveloped in deep loneliness

I cannot stop my tears...

Ah, again... it's connected...

The scar within me that won't fade

Because I've felt it so many times,
I know this heart

Lonely...

The scar that keeps surfacing forever
How long will it keep making me cry...

I just want to be by your side
That's all I want

Soaking into my heart,

Crying

I hate being lonely...

~Deep Layer~

When I am wrapped in loneliness,
I connect to the loneliness in the deep layer

When I feel natural emotions,
suddenly, with a thud,
I fall into the depths

Before I know it, I am sinking into the deep layer

Ah, it's happening again... I notice

Feeling that I am in the depths

Called back by that loneliness
I feel my small heart

The loneliness that won't fade
seems to be saying, 'Don't forget me'

That's right
you were very lonely, weren't you
it won't fade, will it
It won't fade, you were so lonely, weren't you

I offer words to that voice
that sounds like a monologue

I don't want to feel lonely anymore
because that's what you're saying as you cry

Yes, yes, that's right, I say
empathizing and comforting each other together

Then suddenly, smoothly, this time I rise up
and return to the present

Ah... I'm back...

Having experienced a brief time travel

And now, I am looking forward

..Thank you for reading..

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