My Daughter's Job Hunt

My eldest daughter is job hunting.
They say it's a seller's market,
but I wonder about that.

My status-loving eldest daughter
seems to be challenging well-known companies.

That kind of spirit is so like her,
and I want to praise how wonderful it is.
Long live the doting parent!

She made it to the final round for her first-choice company!

That's my girl!
[[phN_open]]
My spouse and I are both overjoyed.[[phN_close]]Long live the doting parent!

However,
unfortunately, her interviews overlapped.

Two companies in one day is
a difficult situation for her to focus,
since she's a single-tasker.

Will she be okay?!

She knows she's not good at it, but she has the flexibility
to turn anything into a positive.

However,

to be honest, she's insensitive to her own feelings,
and sometimes struggles to perceive them.

As expected,

perhaps because she's feeling restless,
she comes up with completely unrelated things.

She tries to think about unnecessary things and get involved in them.
Even though she has things to think about,
she adds more to think about and makes herself busy.

This isn't the first time this has happened,
so I know this pattern like the back of my hand.

It's a state of mind where she wants to escape reality.
Only her thoughts are flying into the future.
She tries to distance herself from the reality she needs to face.
She's feeling a terrifying amount of tension.

And she cannot be objective about herself.

My daughter sometimes acts like that.
Once again, while talking to my eldest daughter,
I felt that.

She's panicking about something else,
and trying to start preparing in a rush.

(Inner voice)
No, no, wait, wait.
Don't panic.
You don't need to think about that right now.
It's not the time for that...

Since she isn't aware of it herself,
I will offer words
that help her see things calmly from a broader perspective.

(Inner voice)
Whoa, whoa,
take a slow breath,
calm down.

Create a little space in your mind,
and for now, just finish it.

(Inner voice)
Phew, that was a surprise.
Are you okay? Haha.

Seeing her usual pattern emerge,
I had to laugh a little.

She hasn't changed at all, haha.

Make her focus only on what's important,
and tell her she doesn't need to think about the rest.

I'll help you think about it later,
so you don't need to worry about anything right now.
Just think about one thing and focus on that.

Avoid distractions and show her the way.

A few days later, just before her interview,
I heard from my eldest daughter.

Something is wrong with my mouth! 💦
I've had this weird symptom for a while, what should I do?
I can't sleep!

(Inner voice)
Huh? What, what happened?
What is it this time?
Did it manifest physically?
Right before the interview... is she going to be okay?

Is it from anxiety?
Her worries were growing larger.

For now,
you just have to do what you need to do.
Go to the hospital.

She must have been panicked
by a symptom she'd never experienced before.
She must have been panicked
by feeling unwell right before her interview.

First, I calmed her down
and tried to get her to sleep.

The next day, she got medicine at the hospital.
The symptoms eased.
I'm glad we were able to deal with it right away.

(Inner voice)
Phew, that was a surprise.
I was a little panicked too.

With all the ups and downs, there's laughter too
And there's tension and anxiety as well

Job hunting is tough... haha

She must really want this position

Well, of course
It's a difficult one, and it's a cool job
She'd want to go there, wouldn't she

I'm rooting for her too
But if I get my hopes up
It'll just add more pressure

I want to support her, but too much isn't good either
It's hard to find the right balance, haha

First choice, final round
Even in the final round, half of them get cut...
I can only imagine how nervous she must have been

I think she did well, as her mother

Just making it to the final round is an amazing feat
Since she's come this far, naturally
She wants to be hired

I understand her feelings all too well

After the interview

There was no word from her for a while
Because she would have told me right away if it were happy news

I know that, but
I'm worried about your mental state

Since you're not very sensitive to your own perceptions
The scale of your outward expression and the scale of your heart
Even if they have the same markings, it's like millimeters and centimeters
The units are different, you see

I wonder if it's showing up in your body?

I wanted to know how she was doing, so I tried calling her,
but there's no way she'd answer, and the message remains unread.

I wonder if she's okay... I'll just keep watching over her.

A few days passed, and I tried sending another one.

"Hey eldest daughter, are you alive?"

"I got rejected by [Company Name]😭"

A single sentence came back.

I'm glad she was able to say it...

She wanted to be happy for herself,
and she wanted to make her parents happy, too.

It was a time for her to process everything.

I reply with words like a best friend.

That's a shocker😭
You made it to the final round, so you really wanted to get in, didn't you?😭
Just making it to the final round is amazing✨

That's what I said to her. Still unread.
It's the usual, though, haha.

Even my super-positive eldest daughter
was unusually unable to do anything
and was feeling down (according to my second daughter).

It was really so close.
It's frustrating, isn't it...

It felt like it was within reach.

It was your dream company, after all.

Yes, yes, you did well.
You were wonderful, you did a great job.

That's what your mother thinks.

I'm sure by now,
you are already looking ahead.

Even if you haven't said it,
I'm sure you have a new perspective.

Let me hear about it again sometime♪

~Support~

Since you have an offer elsewhere,
as a parent, I could have a little peace of mind.

Since I'm not job hunting myself,
I honestly think just going through the job hunt is amazing!
I really do.

You once said you regretted
not starting your activities sooner, didn't you?
(I told you properly back then, haha)

Since you weren't looking ahead,
you just have to do what you can.

Ah, but still, it was so close.
It was a company that suited my eldest daughter, haha.

Our prayers didn't reach...
Let's praise your valiant effort✨

The job hunt continues
Do your best! My eldest daughter!✨

・・Thank you for reading・・

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