[Oshikatsu] The summer-colored veil unravels in the morning glow

I had a dream about you for the first time in a while. Perhaps it's because I started missing you so suddenly.
I wonder if it's because even when I go to see you, the heat makes it impossible to talk, and it ends in the blink of an eye.

The friends I was with stare at their phone screens while thinking, 'I want to see you,' but I can't bring myself to do that in public. I do it when I get home and am alone, though.
I find myself wanting to see you after all. Since it's an 'eternal unrequited love' that could never be fulfilled from the moment we met, I can only think about how I just want to cherish these feelings.

At times like that, I had a dream about you for the first time in a while. Maybe it's because I was thinking about you before I went to sleep last night. You were the same as always, but I'm so happy that you're there. Even though we often can't meet in reality, I like to think that I can always meet you in my dreams.

At such times, I remembered the lyrics of a song sung by an idol I liked when I was a child.

There is more to these lyrics. But this is all that came to mind.

When I woke up, I instinctively reached for my notebook. And I wrote sentences in it, just like I always do when journaling.
The words I am speaking are that my feelings for you are an 'eternal unrequited love.' I have the right to fall in love on my own, and I can also give up on my own. These feelings will never reach the real you. I'm fine with that. I know the risks of falling in love for real.
—That's why it's an 'eternal unrequited love,' isn't it.

I am writing in my notebook because I feel like it might all disappear someday. My feelings and everything else. Honestly, it's scary. Because I met the first person I ever truly loved after someone who was timid about romance learned to walk on her own two feet. It might be something or other toward that person, but it's the first time I've ever fallen in love.

When I couldn't walk on my own, I was just going with the flow, and I had no romantic experience, and I could only follow the flow of others when it came to marriage. I thought I wouldn't be cherished for who I was, so I gave up on everything. But that was because I didn't cherish myself, and that's how reality turned out.

That's not the case now. I am walking properly. It started when I felt my heart being squeezed tight, and as time went by, I truly fell in love. It might be a late-blooming love.

—Please, I hope this will be my last love.

I prayed to the morning sky with feelings that will never reach you.