I was a black witch. And then, I awakened as a white wizard.

For the past few weeks, I've had a fever repeatedly and been bedridden with a sore throat.
Actually, this is the third time since the beginning of this year.
It's not so much an illness... but I couldn't shake the feeling that 'something is happening'.

And then, the other day, when I happened to look at the Mayan calendar and realized that we are currently in the
13-day period of the 'White Wizard,' my whole body tingled.



I earned my Reiki healer certification a few years ago,
and at that time, my teacher told me, 'In your past life, you were a black witch.'
A black witch.
It was a being who possessed strong spiritual power and guided people, but who experienced things like 'witch hunts' due to misunderstandings and prejudice.


But through Reiki,

my teacher said this:
'You have become a white wizard.'

At that moment, my chest felt warm and fuzzy,

and I thought, 'Ah, I have forgiven myself.'


A vision I saw during healing.

I was a dragon.
That dragon was quietly gazing at the sky, but looked somewhat lonely...

but at the same time, I felt something like an incredibly strong 'compassion'.
That might have been exactly who I am right now.



The theme of the White Wizard is forgiveness and healing.

And the idea that 'you don't have to fight anymore'.


Thinking about it now, my poor physical condition,

and the experiences I had in the outside world in Saga and at Dazaifu Tenmangu,
I think they were all part of this process of 'awakening'.
Changing actually takes a lot of physical strength.

The transformation of the soul truly has a 'process in reality'.


Now, rather than 'fighting',

I want to choose
'praying',
'loving',
and 'believing'.

Perhaps that is my 'magic'.



The world is still in chaos, but
I want to connect with the light within me,
and live my life without forgetting that light.



I have a fever again today,
and my body feels rough,
but my heart is quiet and composed.



I am a little proud of myself for that.