Searching for Life

I went to see 'Demon Slayer' the other day and discovered the joys of the movie theater. I didn't even know that the 1st of every month is 'First Day,' a day when you can enjoy movies at a slightly lower price, but I went to see this month's movie right after work today.

The sense of being in an extraordinary world on the way home
was just the same as it was the other day.

For some reason, the usual streets look different. They look exactly the same, but it's like a parallel world with a subtle sense of unease...

I don't know what's happening inside me, but perhaps stopping my usual thinking and worrying, and just focusing on receiving, is what sharpens my sensibilities.

'I could never live like that.'

A certain scene from 'Kokuhoku' that I watched today. These were the words muttered behind the curtain by an employee of an entertainment company regarding the protagonists who live for their art.

I found myself nodding along, thinking, 'That's so true.' I felt a bit disappointed realizing I had completely lost that kind of passion, but I think it's necessary to encounter moments that stir feelings that tend to fade in everyday life.

— And, as expected, I return to the topic of work.
I'm glad I reduced my work hours. Choosing space over money might be the first correct decision I've ever made in my life.

My motivation and sense of fulfillment in my current job are at about 60%. When I write in my diary every night, I have nothing to say about the work section, leaving a blank space.

I feel a little guilty about it, but for now, that's fine. Because I'm conserving energy, my range of activities has expanded, and what I gain from that is more than I expected.

Things I couldn't find when I prioritized work above all else. For a little while longer, I want to live as I am now, carefully gathering those things as I go.

What should I do tomorrow?