I want to reach you, but it's okay if I don't

Every time I remember the difficult period my son went through,
I feel like my future self would meddlesomely say,
“A day will come when you can overcome this,”
but I’m sure it wouldn’t have reached him at that time.

I also reflect that he probably wouldn't have had the energy to believe
that such a future would come,
nor would he have been able to accept that a future even existed.

For someone in a state close to what you might call despair,
a vision of an aimless future
is nothing more than a pipe dream,
and he might have retorted,
“What are you talking about? I’m suffering right now.”

No, he didn't even have the energy to retort like that
back when my son was in that state.

That is why I think it was better that it didn't reach him.

When I see my child struggling,
I find myself wanting to do everything I possibly can for him.

I am amazed at myself for being such a doting parent.

It was precisely because he didn't run away from that painful period,
because he lived each day carefully and steadily,
and because we cried together
and talked so much,
that both he and our family were able to overcome it.

Because of that experience,
he is now able to spend his days with confidence.

When I think of it that way,
that painful period where he couldn't hold onto hope wasn't in vain.

That painful period might have been
the missing piece necessary for who you are now

That is why
to those who are suffering now,
I will not speak of a bright future with ease

However

someday,
I hope the day comes when you can overcome the pain you feel now

May this small wish

reach you someday

No, it's okay if it doesn't reach you

May this small wish dissolve into the air,
become gentle particles,
and fall upon you someday

To you who are suffering now

This was not a poem,
not a short story,
not words of salvation,
but just a note where I put my honest feelings into words (^^♪

It was my annual pre-rainy season day of scrubbing away bathroom mold.
Thanks to starting first thing in the morning,
I'm feeling refreshed this morning✨

I raised my son by telling him that👆 ヾ(*´∀｀*)ﾉ

Well then, may today be another day filled with smiles (*'▽')ノ💖Mom's magic

I borrowed the header from ARIKA-san.
It was love at first sight ( *´艸｀)
My connection with ARIKA-san has also lasted for years now (*´ω`*)

I forgot to paste the link to the article I actually wanted to introduce💦💦