Doing okay, I guess #3 | Apparently I have 'low vitality' (I already knew that)

The other day, I took a stress check at work.
The results came back, and there was one line written on them.

"It seems your vitality is low."

……
Shut uuuuuuuup.

It's not like I didn't know that; it's just that someone finally put it into words.
I mean, I'm using up all my energy just breathing here, you know?

Waking up in the morning,
washing my face,
getting dressed,
driving the car,
and just sitting at my desk at work,
my HP is already almost at zero.

And yet, they say my "vitality is low."
I want to ask them back:
Where exactly was I supposed to find the room to pack in some vitality?


Even though stress checks ask "Are you feeling energetic?" in such a polite way,
if your answer is "I'm not," they kind of blame you for it, don't they?

・I don't feel motivated
・I can't get rid of my fatigue
・I find it hard to feel enjoyment

As I was checking those boxes,
"Yeah, yeah, I know,"
"That's not just since yesterday, that's been the case for years,"
I was nodding along in my heart.


But, think about it calmly.

Low vitality = bad
…isn't that not necessarily true?

Every morning, while saying "Do I really have to go to work?", I still go to work, do the bare minimum, and manage to live and come home today.

I think that alone is enough to count as doing my best.

Vitality is like optional equipment for people who have energy to spare; for me right now, it's just unreleased content.

And besides, it's paid content for members only.

I have no intention of signing up for a membership, and I don't feel like I could even if I wanted to.

By the way.

At the same workplace where I got that "low vitality" verdict,
a new hire said this to me:

"Shiokombu-senpai, you have so much vitality! You work so fast!"

……Huh?

For a second, I wondered, which timeline am I in?

Inwardly, I was living my life:
・Leaving half my soul at home since the morning
・Keeping my smile in energy-saving mode
・Keeping conversation to a minimum
Apparently, in the eyes of the new hire, that looked like "vitality."

Maybe,
・Not getting angry more than necessary
・Not trying too hard
・Staying calm and collected
This theory suggests that this "sense of stability" was converted into "vitality."

People's evaluations really aren't reliable at all.

In the stress check,

"Low vitality"
From the new hire,
"You have so much vitality!"
I don't know which one is correct, but

the only thing I know for sure is,


a junior who throws positive expressions my way, you are seriously a good person.In my working life, a single comment like this can help me survive for another three months.

I really hope the new hire grows up just like that.


Without becoming jaded, staying kind.


I pray from the bottom of my heart for your long-lasting happiness.As for me, my vitality is low again today, but it seems my luck in being blessed with good people is pretty high.

I breathed properly today, and that alone is a perfect score.

Side note

I, who was told I have no vitality, drank this energy drink-like thing↓ at work and did my best at work in the afternoon.
I can't get through the day without drinking it.

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