Second Week of Leave/Towards a Brighter Heart🌈

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State of Mind This Week

I feel like I have made a little progress this week and am gradually returning to my original state.
I used to have scary dreams or work-related dreams almost every day, but I have stopped having them.
My mind is tired, and I can only manage to watch my favorite videos on YouTube or Amazon Prime, but it is recharging me.
I feel like my mind is gradually drifting away from the company.

Things I Worked On

I spent most of this week working on paperwork.

1. Injury and Sickness Allowance Documents
→ For the November issuance, a doctor's certificate is required, but since they cannot certify future dates, it is on hold.
I looked at my household budget during my leave again, and living on the injury and sickness allowance is tough. Since I pay rent that matches my current salary, half of it disappears into rent🙃
I have to manage on a very tight budget...
But it is a system I am grateful to have, even if it is not much.
I have never applied for the injury and sickness allowance before and don't know when it will come in, so I realized that savings are important.

2. Scholarship Repayment Reduction Request Documents
→ I decided to apply to have my monthly scholarship repayment amount reduced while on leave. (*This does not change the total amount of the scholarship to be repaid.)
I was using a combination of monthly and semi-annual repayments, so I could not apply online. Therefore, I had to submit the documents by mail. (Those who only use monthly repayments seem to be able to apply online via Skynet. Those who submit by document can log in to Skynet and copy the application form.)
My repayment is heaviest in January, and to make it in time for that month, it seems I need to apply by the end of the month two months prior to the month I want it to apply to. Therefore, I had to apply by the end of this month, November.
Proof of income is required for the application, but since my My Number application is complete, there were no specific documents I needed to prepare.
For those who need other documents, it seems that if your income is above a certain level and you are on leave, you need to have your workplace issue a certificate of leave. It seems the required documents differ depending on the reason, such as injury, sickness, or salary reduction.
It seems I can check whether it was accepted on Skynet in two weeks.

3. Application for Workers' Compensation Document Issuance from the Company
Regarding the injury I sustained while doing company work before my leave, I have received the application form, so I will try to submit it just in case, even if it might not be accepted.

4. Framing for the Second Screening
The frame (a temporary frame for public exhibition) has arrived.
I didn't know when it would arrive, so I was relieved that it would make it in time.
I made mistakes, but I spent two days assembling it.
In the middle of it, I was even eating my meals sitting in the middle of the frame.
I'm not used to it, so I couldn't assemble it well, but I did my best.
All that's left is packing and delivery...

Events That Caused Significant Damage

The emotional damage was greatest when the documents from the company arrived...
I don't want to think about returning to work, but it had things written about returning to work...
My company says that if I cannot return by the end of my leave period, it will be considered a natural resignation.
The documents I received from the company (especially regarding workers' compensation) were about something I had a bit of a conflict over before my leave, so I thought a lot about how to write and submit them, which caused insomnia and a phenomenon where my heart rate would rise while in bed😓

I think what I was thinking and how I dealt with it at this time will be useful later, so I would like to write an article about it if I can.

I have had trouble sleeping and my heart rate rising since I was a student, but there is nothing I can do about this🙃

Events That Brightened My Heart

Thinking about quitting my job made my heart feel lighter.
I registered on a job change site and set a date for an interview.
I haven't had the interview yet, but I received an email introducing a job in an industry I was interested in, and since I had been turned down by other job change agents, I was a little happy...🥲
I was able to book a free consultation for employment support, so I felt a little relieved.
Employment support seems to be a welfare service available to those who have hurdles in working due to adjustment disorders, depression, developmental disabilities, etc.
It seems like it will be a clue to solving the anxieties I have had until now.

I think I want to change jobs because thinking about changing jobs makes my heart feel lighter than thinking about returning to work.
I have worried and faced many things until now, but I think I have worried enough, so it is okay...

P.S.
Going off-topic, I was surprised that Letter Packs have gone up in price. It was 430 yen for non-face-to-face delivery.
Going further off-topic, usually ice cream prices go down at this time of year, but
I was shocked that it had gone up at my favorite pharmacy...😭
I will eat it carefully...😭