Night Letters | To the nights when you feel like you're the only one standing still while everyone else is moving forward

Thank you for your hard work today.

There are nights when seeing someone's life updates makes you feel a little bit pained.

People who started new jobs.

People who moved.

People who started something new.

People whose long-term efforts have finally taken shape.

It's not that those people are doing anything wrong, and honestly, I want to be able to say "I'm happy for you" sincerely.

And yet, after closing the screen, what remains is...
a small sense of heaviness, wondering,

"What am I doing with my life?"

It's a small weight that lingers.

I'm in the same place today as I was yesterday.

I haven't started anything new.

I haven't accomplished anything special.

Even though I want to change, before I know it, another day has ended.

When I feel that way, more than the act of standing still itself,

the time spent blaming myself for standing still

can become even more painful.

Comparing someone else's year to my own today.

Comparing someone else's most beautiful moment to my own uneventful night.

Even though I know it's pointless to compare, it's hard to stop my mind from doing it.

So tonight,
perhaps you don't have to force yourself to stop comparing.

You don't have to try to look forward.

It's okay if you can't immediately accept that
it's fine to go at your own pace.

Just,

“Ah, I felt like I was the only one standing still today.”

Even just realizing that
feels like it makes a little bit of a difference.

Even in time that looks like it's standing still,
there are things that cannot be seen from the outside.

Being tired.

Being lost.

Trying to let something go.

Things that haven't become words yet.

And,
just doing your best to finish the day.

These things
don't look like easy-to-understand “progress.”

But at least for tonight,
perhaps you don't have to label a day that looks like nothing changed
as a failure.

The phrase that appears several times in this song,

“I am still here”

was not written as a positive resolution.
It does not mean I will do my best starting tomorrow.

It does not mean I will do my best starting tomorrow.

Just,

I am still here.

That is all.

Even if you can't catch up.

Even if you can't find the answer.

Even if you can't close the page today.

Tonight, it's okay to just stay right here.

This is a song I made with that feeling in mind.

If you are feeling a little pained right now from comparing yourself to others,

I hope that for just the duration of this one song, you can take a break from grading yourself.

🌙 Tonight's Song

"Still Here"

A song for nights when everyone else seems to be moving forward, but you feel like you're the only one in the same place.

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In Adon's Night Prescriptions, I deliver quiet music and a night letter to a "specific, singular night" that no one else can see.

May tonight be just a little bit quieter.