To my future self. From today's me ②

I went to a cafe with a friend today.

I had curry.

I was so happy because they were really delighted when I gave them my drawing.

But you know, after I got home, I felt so lonely that I cried in the bath.

I wonder why...

How long do I have to be lonely and cry by myself?
How long do I have to keep trying before it pays off?
I think it's because I started thinking about things like that.

If there were a God

I think things like that, but there is no God.

If there really were one, they would surely help me escape this pain.

Tomorrow, I will live on, struggling and suffering all alone without a helping hand.

All by myself.

I sincerely hope that my future self reads this and turns it into a funny story.

Like, 'Oh, that happened too.'

A day when I can laugh about it

I hope that day comes someday.

They say there is no night that doesn't end, but I wonder if that's true.

-To everyone reading this post-

You did a great job living your best today.

To those who cried today just like me, it was hard, wasn't it?

Let's get through this tough night together and welcome tomorrow side by side.

See you tomorrow, then.