HSS-type HSP / INFJ | Feeling restless if I'm not doing something

Good evening🌙
It's Shichimi🌶️

"I feel restless if I'm not doing something."
I've lived my whole life feeling that way.
That's why, even during my precious relaxation time, my mind often doesn't get any rest.

For example...
When I have no plans on my day off,
or while I'm drying my hair or waiting in line at a store,
I find myself thinking, "I need to be doing something with this time."

My mind is always noisy with thoughts like,
"I need to work harder"
"I'm wasting time."
But recently, I thought that maybe "how I'm feeling in that moment" is more important than "what I'm doing."

The other day, I prepared some iced coffee and snacks to watch YouTube,
and I started with the "excitement of preparation."

Then, even though I was just blankly watching a video,
I felt, "Ah, I am truly satisfied right now."
(I gathered all my favorite things together)
The unconscious "I have to do this" hasn't disappeared yet, but
I hope that even if it's just a little bit at a time, the days where I can truly savor time for myself will increase.

Today's illustration

When I opened the fridge, it was the ocean
I recently drove along the coast, so here it is💁‍♀️

See you👋