On days when resting doesn't take away the fatigue
Hello, this is Moyagen.
Don't you ever have those days where you feel like you haven't recovered from your fatigue at all, even though you're sure you rested properly?
On your day off, you sleep well, lounge around until noon, check social media, watch YouTube...
You thought, 'Now I'll be refreshed for tomorrow!', but for some reason, you feel sluggish on Monday morning.
Actually, you feel even heavier than before the break. It's that 'Wait, why?' feeling.
Lately, I've been calling this phenomenon lost charging cable for lack of a better term.
For example, when you try to charge your phone and think you've plugged it in, but it wasn't actually charging, the battery level sometimes even drops, right?
I feel like the same thing happens to people.
I used to think that rest was something that just happened if you had the time, but in reality, 'where you get your power from' differs from person to person, and it even changes from day to day.
There are days when going out with friends recharges you, and days when you recover better by not seeing anyone at all.
There are days when 'doing what you love' gives you energy, and days when just zoning out and doing nothing works better.
But the tricky thing is that the right answer isn't the same every time.
The method that made you feel refreshed last time might not work at all this time for some reason.
When that happens, you start a mysterious period of self-loathing, wondering, 'Am I bad at resting?'
And I realized recently that resting is a talent, too.
Knowing 'how you recover' and being able to create the time and environment for it is actually a pretty advanced skill.
If you haven't found the location of your charging outlet yet, you just have to keep looking without rushing.
Sometimes you might accidentally unplug the air purifier, but I think that's just part of being human.
So, even if today was a 'day where I couldn't recover at all,'
I want to just brush it off lightly, treating it as just a 'day where I happened to use the wrong outlet.'
The journey to find how to recharge will probably last a lifetime, but the scenery you see along the way surely isn't all that bad.