I spend my days off sleeping. A story about how I slept today while wondering if that's a bad thing

Hello, this is Moyagen.
Today, I'm going to ramble a bit about the mixed feelings I have regarding my days off.

On my day off, I realize it's already past noon.

I wake up, mess around on my phone, eat something, and then go back to bed.
I play a video, doze off, and fall asleep again.
When I wake up, it's already evening.

The kind of moment where you think, 'Wait, what did I even do today?'
I feel like I repeat this every week, somehow.

I feel a bit uneasy, like I've wasted the whole day.
But I don't have any motivation, no particular plans, and nowhere I want to go.
In the end, I just laze around until night and go to sleep again.

Is this a bad thing?

I think about it sometimes.
Like, 'Since it's a day off, shouldn't I be spending it more properly?' or 'I wish I had hobbies or felt like I was living a fulfilling life.'

When I look at social media, everyone seems so vibrant.
Going to cafes for stylish breakfasts, sweating it out at the gym, and going to movies or concerts in the evening.
There are so many people who are 'properly' making use of their days off.

While I think, 'Everyone is amazing,' on the other hand,
I feel a slow sense of depression, thinking, 'I'm really no good...'

And then, I go back to bed to escape reality.

But perhaps, I'm just that tired right now.
My body, my mind, and my energy are all worn thin.
Even though I actually have the desire to do something,
I just don't have enough 'energy to do something' right now.

It's exhausting to force myself to make plans, and I don't have the energy to go out.
If that's the case, maybe a 'day off spent just sleeping' isn't so bad after all.

Even so, I still feel a bit of guilt,
and I often feel uneasy, wondering, 'Is it okay to stay like this?'

But instead of someone else's ideal day off,
I want to try accepting that a 'day off where I don't feel burdened' is okay for now.
I think that's what I need right now.

So, today was another day off that ended in sleep.
But I managed to write a little bit, so that's good enough. ☺