If you ride the 'it doesn't have to be now' time machine, it seems you can just kill time and end your life
Words source: Yu Takahashi 'Niji'
Image source: Time machine search
I am a middle-aged man with big ambitions who loves Yu Takahashi!
This song played while I was listening to an Amazon Music playlist. Suddenly, I felt as if I had been asked, 'Aren't you riding the "it doesn't have to be now" time machine?'
Yu Takahashi is the same age as me. I first learned of him and grew to like him about 8 years ago through his song 'Ashita wa Kitto Ii Hi ni Naru' (Tomorrow will surely be a good day), which was used in a Daihatsu commercial. Since then, I've learned many of his songs and sing them at karaoke. I've sung them while drunk and crying more than a few times. lol
For the past 10 years or so, I have thought about changing jobs many times, but I have reached this point without ever quitting my current job. I am riding the 'it doesn't have to be now' time machine.
Because my current job is interesting, because I want to finish this project, because I went to a recruitment agency but there were no interesting jobs, because the scouts seem shady, because I'm continuing while cutting down my working hours—how many times have I talked to my wife about how it's not the time to quit yet...?
Yu Takahashi's 'Niji' (Rainbow).
"If you ride the 'it doesn't have to be now' time machine, it seems you can just kill time and end your life. When was the last time you cried from the heart? When was the last time you and I laughed together from the heart?"
Thinking about the raging speed at which the last 10 years or so have passed, I sometimes get scared that if things keep going like this, my life will really end. My son, who was born 12 years ago, has already grown into a 12-year-old boy who is 165cm tall. I haven't grown even 1mm in height. While I may have matured physically and mentally, I feel like I haven't grown as a human being. Is it okay to stay like this?
Work is piling up one thing after another right now. It is once again encroaching on the time I have to do what I want to do. I must put an end to what I have been repeating for the last 10 years or so. I will say 'No' to things that are not what I want to do. I will do what I want to do. If I write it down here, I can remember it. I can build it up. I can look back on it. That is why I will continue.
Adding what I want to do.
121. Go to a Yu Takahashi concert and sing along.
Forward, forward, even if it's just a few centimeters at a time, endure and move forward. Perhaps people fall and shed tears in order to learn the meaning of standing up again. That much is fine; let's stand up again.
To be continued
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