The Libra Full Moon might be the movie 'Past Lives'

What movie feels like this Libra Full Moon? I wondered, and...
When I searched my internal database
(It's been running a bit slow lately. That's just age...)
I remembered.
'Past Lives'
A 2023 American film.
It's not flashy, but it's a film that slowly sinks in afterward.

Actually, even though I remembered it,
when I asked myself, "Is it a perfect fit for this Full Moon?"
I thought, maybe not?
But then, after watching it again,
I thought, "Oh, it really does feel like this Libra Full Moon, doesn't it?" (laughs)

Synopsis (in brief)

Nora, who grew up in Korea (her name was Na Young when she was a girl in Korea),
and Hae Sung.
They were close as children
(likely each other's first love),
but they were separated when Nora moved to Canada with her family.

They reconnected online 12 years later.
Their relationship became intense quickly,
but they eventually faced a "parting."
After that,
Nora got married
and built a career as a screenwriter in New York.

Hae Sung went to China, but
returned to Seoul, where he was born and raised, and lives there now.
Carrying the time he spent with Nora.

And then, 12 years later,
they reunite in New York,
where Nora lives.

The two spend a few days together,
and then face another "parting."

…It sounds simple when written like that, but
the simplest stories are the ones that stay with you, aren't they?

The two selves within Nora

What was impressive while watching it was
the "two selves" within Nora.

One is Nora in New York.

The self that is tough, independent, and moving forward,
trying to build a career as a screenwriter.

She has it together.
She stands on her own.
The self within society.

Her so-called 10th House self.

The other is Nora—or Na Young—when she is with Hae Sung.

Speaking Korean,
the atmosphere softens a bit,
and it feels like she returns to her former self.

Somewhere vulnerable,
a self that hasn't taken shape yet.
The self from when she was a crybaby.
Not Nora, but her Korean name, "Na Young."

This side is the 4th House.

It's not a question of which one is the real her, is it?

At times like this, you tend to think about it.

Wondering which one is the real you.

But this movie doesn't go there.

Nora is

• her real self in NY

• her real self in Korea (Na Young)

Both are truly there. After all, Arthur (the husband she married in NY) even says,
'You talk in your sleep in Korean.'

It's just that
you can't live both at the same time.
I think it means Nora and Na Young cannot live their 'lives' simultaneously.

That ending

And that ending. (It's a bit of a spoiler, but)

After seeing Hae Sung off,
Nora returns to her husband Arthur and cries.

Those tears,
I don't think they have just one meaning.

There's the sadness of losing Hae Sung,
there's probably regret for not choosing Hae Sung,
there's the reality of having chosen her current life,
and there's the relief of being able to return to her husband.

It's all mixed together.

...You know those kinds of tears, don't you?

Being just the 'put-together' version of yourself isn't enough.

And this is the part I really love:

Nora shows those tears
in front of Arthur.

This means,

I think it means she is bringing not just the 'put-together' 10th house version of Nora,
but also the 'crybaby' 4th house version of Na Young,
back to her current place. I don't think she necessarily wanted Arthur to comfort her.

Strong, put-together,
and even ambitious—not just the version of myself that looks like I'm living properly to others,

but also the unfinished, emotional,
and wavering version of myself
I brought back to the home in NY where I will continue to live with Arthur.
...It feels like I let them live together.

It exists without being neatly resolved.

This movie

doesn't end with
a 'everything worked out perfectly' kind of conclusion.
(The feelings of Hae Sung, who returned to Korea, are also
bound to be complicated.)

Rather,

having both,
carrying both,
and still living in the now,
living in the 'future.'

That's the feeling.

That's why it leaves a bit of discomfort, but
I also think it's realistic.

(Maybe it's better) not to define yourself by a single color.

I wrote that 'the Libra Full Moon on April 2nd might be a full moon that doesn't define you by a single color,' but
this Libra Full Moon
is a bit more than just words like
'balance' or 'harmony.'

Not defining yourself by a single perspective

is what I still think it's about.

Just as the black of a raven
can look green, blue, or purple depending on the light,

we also have many colors within us.

But we tend to

'This is me,'
'This is my life right now,'

and try to bundle it all into one.

Because it's easier to understand.

But in reality,
it's a little more complex
and has a little more depth.
I think that's probably true for everyone.

If I were to relate it to this full moon

Like Nora (Na Young) from 'Past Lives',

It's not just about bringing back the 'proper' version of yourself,
but also bringing back that other 'not-so-proper' version of yourself
to where you are right now, just as they are.

The strong you, the weak you,
the past you, the present you

Instead of discarding any of them,
you should properly place them side by side.
You should let them stay together.

That might be the theme of this full moon.

In the end,

you don't have to pretend the life you didn't choose never happened,
and you don't have to cut off your past self.

It is okay for your current self
to have many different colors.

...That is what I think.

May this full moon
make all the colors we possess
shine even brighter.
Best wishes!

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