Creating Sparkle

I was obsessed. With the student council from my high school days.

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Even now, I still get together with the student council members sometimes, but I don't think any of us frequently reminisce about or miss our activities anymore. I was the only one who kept clinging to it.

It was precisely because I became student council president that I was able to awaken to things like pursuing what I want to do to the fullest, wanting to try new things, and wanting to create something. It is my origin.

Above all, for someone like me who had nowhere to belong, the student council room was the only place in school where I could breathe. Everyone was kind, capable, and considerate.

I had been chasing that for a long time. Recently, I feel like I might have finally broken free from it a little. I started my own theater troupe last year, and I've been running forward, looking only ahead—so much so that I couldn't even properly look at everyone's faces. Because everyone is so kind, I was always worried about whether they were unable to tell me things they didn't like or if they had any complaints, but I kept running anyway.
Today, when we held a meeting with the members to discuss the future of the troupe, everyone's eyes looked like they were sparkling. Ah, I realized I could keep leading them like this. I wondered if I was able to show them hope. Also, I was so happy to see the love for the troupe spilling out from each of them; it made me happy to know that it wasn't just a precious place to me.

There are many things I'm anxious about, and surely many failures and things that won't go well, but whenever that happens, I want to remember everyone's eyes from today and keep creating sparkle forever.