Food for Now

Taking medication after breakfast has become a fixed part of my life.
Since I am a person who forgets everything,
I have to eat something as soon as I wake up,
and if I don't take my medicine right away,
I am guaranteed to face the catastrophe of having to dispose of
the massive amount of medicine scraped together from nowhere at the end of the year.
Wake up -> Eat -> Take medicine
I set this to autopilot, but
because it is on autopilot, I cannot remember if I took the medicine.
After many bitter experiences, I finally
automated the process of writing the date on the medicine container with the very hand that took the medicine.
Good grief.

Ever since morning medication was set,
I have lost track of when to eat grapefruit.
It might have saved my life.
If it weren't for this restriction,
I have a nature where I would unconsciously keep eating citrus fruits from the moment I wake up until I go to sleep.

Even if I harbor dissatisfaction
about things I cannot change at my own discretion,
the more I harbor it, the more my physical condition tends to worsen.

A long time ago,
I lost a precious cat due to my own carelessness,
and I couldn't stop crying for a whole year, shedding a lifetime's worth of tears.
And yet,
after seeing off so many decades, now,
the moment I think of that cat,
my blood pressure returns to normal in an instant; this is also reality.