The Promised Path: Modest, Gentle Flowers Bloom in the Wake of What Has Passed.

I feel as though I have been asking myself, for a very long time, who I am.

I was the one who stepped in between my parents and family to act as a bridge. I am quite an empath, and it was in 2019 that I realized that was why things were so painful for me.
After my Reiki First Degree attunement, I did 21 days of self-healing.
Every single day, I would place my hands on myself, a mess of tears and runny nose.
At that time, people I met would tell me things like I had a role to become a healer, or that it was my mission, and since that was the trend, I started to feel that way myself.
At the same time, I was told harsh words that those who are not healed cannot become healers, while on the other hand, I learned the Native American tradition that only a wounded healer can bring healing.
And I felt a complex about other healers who shared that they were raised with love and that they were loved.
I had been told that I was born for the sake of my parents and family, and I felt that way myself.
Since learning Reiki, my surroundings have changed quite a bit. Everyone was pursuing self-growth and earning a living by utilizing their own characteristics, which was very stimulating and made me think that I might have possibilities too.

However, as an empath, I got tired from interacting with too many people, and although I experienced a management position in a different industry for my career, I was hurt and closed off my own light.

Around the time of my Reiki First Degree in 2019, I was doing self-healing every morning to align myself, and I would play something called 'Universe Music' from YouTube.
When I listened to it, my mind would go blank and the fog in my heart would disappear.
What was that?
I can no longer find that music on YouTube now.

After many twists and turns, I have now returned to grounding myself on Earth and living in this dimension.
Thinking back on those twists and turns, I realize I am following the promised path of remembering my connection to the higher realms.

Reiki came to me to protect me, as I was exhausted from being an empath. That must have been the love of Sanat Kumara.
And my beloved dog, Bell, was born for me. She supported me and taught me the joy of being alive. Bell was born with a purpose. She led me to meet my soul family. One person Bell introduced me to was someone who loved animals, someone who felt nostalgic and calming. And Bell also introduced me to Yuki. She found Bell's soulmate, Yuki, and brought her to me.
Bell also connected me with the angels.

She reminded me of a distant memory, of when my soul was in the heavenly realm learning from the angels.
And she reminded me of my connection to Mother Mary.
Mary is the Queen of Angels.

The angels support and guide us.
They are truly wonderful beings, and the higher beings are wonderful.

I received my Reiki attunement at 50; that must have been the guidance saying, 'It is okay for you to remember your soul's memories now,' and the beginning of joy.

That music of the universe, which I cannot hear now.
My head went blank and the fog in my heart vanished.
That was what reminded me that I am a starseed.

Recently, there is a card that has been speaking to me constantly.
A gift for me; it is 'Starseed'.

Higher beings have always been by my side.
Of course, my Higher Self never leaves.
I would give too much to others, and I would unknowingly heal people who were suffering from painful emotions and situations.

This has been the case since I was a child.
That is why I had a vague sense of blockage in living.
I must have been tired of giving my own energy and my own love.

I believe that because I have walked the promised path of remembering my connection to the higher realms, I have this present and this past.

The awakening of the soul is magnificent and not easy.
The path is winding and rugged, and I stumble and fall.
Yet, the angels reach out their hands.
Higher beings run alongside me.
It is okay to be slow, or clumsy.
Walk your path, with your own feet, together with the Earth, together with the universe, and together with love.

Modest, gentle flowers bloom on the path I have passed.