Letting Go and Gratitude✨

Good morning, this is mimi🌷
Today, I would like to share my honest feelings as they are right now.

A while after entering the separation period with my twin ray partner, I thought about what I wanted to become with them, and what kind of woman I wanted to be myself.

I declared:
I will become a calm, kind woman who is always cheerful, bright, and active, treats everyone the same, and can be there for anyone❗️

Several years have passed since then, and I feel that I am getting closer to the woman I set out to be, step by step☺️

I suddenly wondered why I wanted to become that way!?
Then I realized it was because I was bullied for about three years when I was in junior high school, both within my club and elsewhere.

They would stick to the kids who were bullying me, say nasty things to me just like them, ignore me, act superior, and even knock on the bathroom door while knowing I was inside...
It was very painful.

But you know, by going to meet my younger self from back then, facing her again and again, hugging her, practicing self-hugs, and writing my feelings down on note, I realized that I was gradually being purified.

It is the same with my mother.
I wanted to be loved just as much as my brother...
I released all those thoughts, went to meet the me from back then, and faced it thoroughly. And by writing my feelings on note, I realized that I was being purified.

And now, looking back, I feel that it was precisely because I had such a painful experience being bullied in junior high school that I came to want to treat everyone the same, be there for anyone, and become a kind woman.

Regarding my mother, about a year before she passed away, she started saying things like,
I couldn't do anything for you...
I'm worried about you... expressing her thoughts about me.
I have come to think now that perhaps she didn't intend to raise my brother and me with such disparity.
Also, I feel it was my mother who cultivated the strength in me to move forward on my own.

Looking back now, I feel that it is precisely because I had such painful experiences that I have come to want to be kind to people and be there for them🌸

I want to be grateful for all of this and let it go✨✨
Thank you so, so much🥰🥰

And I would also like to express my heartfelt gratitude to Asuka Yumeno, the integration guide who led me to note.
I have truly been purified and feel lighter✨✨
Thank you🥰🥰

Also, I write about my own realizations and learning, but I am grateful that I am also gaining realizations and learning from many other creators✨✨
Thank you always🥰🥰

Finally, the reason I started writing on note is because I met my twin ray partner, and I want to express my gratitude for the growth I have experienced through many realizations and lessons✨✨

I realized that I met my twin ray to learn about love and gratitude🌸
And that it is a process to return to my true self🌸
Thank you so, so much🥰🥰

June 11th is a full moon🌕
The full moon is for letting go and purification...
I thought it was the perfect timing✨✨

This became a long post, but thank you for reading until the end🍀

Wishing you all a wonderful day🌸