Small Realizations That Changed My Life: A Collection of Talks from Numerology via LINE

Numerology via LINE is a self-dialogue project that encourages self-discovery by writing down your thoughts based on a theme.

This time, we are introducing talks submitted under the theme of "Small realizations that changed my life"✨

The realization that "I was loved by my parents"

I couldn't talk to my family about my true feelings, and I held onto a sense of loneliness for a long time.
Because I re-examined my relationship with my parents through a workshop on reviewing my subconscious, good memories flooded back, and I was able to say, "I was loved."

Thanks to that, I was also able to re-evaluate my groundless anxiety and my relationship with my sisters, which I had thought was strained.

The realization that "Both of them have worked hard to live, and they passed the gift of life on to me"

My younger brother and I shared the understanding that we were a hidden dysfunctional family; I don't resent them, but I have always thought that if our family environment had been a little different, or if our parents' way of thinking had been a little different, it would have been easier for us to live.

This summer, on my father's birthday, my brother sent me a picture of our parents eating eel, and I thought, "Oh, they've gotten old."
Then, I felt a lump in my throat and thought, "Oh, both of them have worked hard to live, and they passed the gift of life on to me." I felt like the fog had lifted, thinking that I am fine as I am, and that it's okay to be this way.

The realization that "Everyone is immature, parents are immature too, that's just how it is"

I felt this deeply while raising my own children. I thought this in the middle of a night-crying session, even though I was a parent, I couldn't feel affection for my child.

The realization that "If you act according to someone else's yardstick, you can't do it"

In a job I've been doing for nearly three years, I was constantly told things bordering on moral harassment, like "You can't even do this? What are you always doing?" When I felt down, I went past anger and suddenly realized "Why can't I do it?"

It seems I can't handle more than three "must-do" tasks a day (lol). Over capacity! So, I realized that I had been thinking in a way where I broke tasks down into small pieces, divided time into small blocks, and reset after finishing three!

I was convinced that, of course, if I act according to someone else's yardstick, I can't do it. At the same time, I thanked my harassing boss and let it go (lol).

The realization that "There really is an invisible world, and not just humans, but plants and animals are all members of the same Earth"

A realization that welled up from within my body in the great nature of the forests of Karuizawa and Miyazaki, in the darkness of night, in the sound of waves so loud you couldn't hear anything else, and in the silence where you could almost hear the snow falling.

The realization that "Divination is not about whether it's accurate or not, but something you use to carve out your own life"

While studying divination such as numerology and tarot, I realized that divination is not about whether it comes true or not, but something to be used to carve out your own life.

The realization that 'when I use not having money as an excuse not to do something, it's because I'm not in the mood.'

The realization that 'when an unpleasant person appears or the environment is not great, it's a turning point.'

The realization that 'maybe things will change if I notice more and truly feel it.'

I realized that the hopes I wrote down regarding work and housing have almost all come true. I'm always swallowed up by feelings of dissatisfaction and pain, so I don't think my life has changed yet, but I wonder if things will change if I notice more and truly feel it, and I hope I can change.

Thank you for sending in various talks again this week!

The Numerology de LINE project aims for 'self-discovery while writing things out,' so I am very happy when it leads to realizations like, 'Oh, so that's what it was!'

The next talk theme is 'I can do this! My future minimal practice.'

Based on the talks from the first to the third week, please tell us about the little things you intend to do to shape your life from now on.

Examples:
・Putting my hands together at the family altar every morning
・Taking a walk once a week and listening to nature
・Greeting people I meet with a smile
・Saying 'I am me' to the mirror
・Doing radio calisthenics every morning

※The point is that it's 'little things,' not anything grand!

We are accepting talks until the end of the month this time, so the period is a bit longer.

Therefore, I am also waiting for additional talks like 'I actually tried it and it felt like this' or 'I started something new!'♡

We are currently accepting your talks on Numerology de LINE✨

🖋 How to Submit

1️⃣ Register for the official LINE account
2️⃣ Feel free to chat about your thoughts on this week's theme
3️⃣ If you do not want your post included in the summary, just add #DoNotPublish at the end of your message!
※ Even without the tag, personal information will not be included in the summary
4️⃣ There will be no replies, so please feel free to post as many times as you like

Even a single word is fine! (Participation is, of course, free)