[My Beloved] The 'Connected Hearts' I saw on my trip. His fastest love, proven in an emergency

​Part 1. 
　　　旅先での再確認：ヒグチユウコ展の「繋がったハート」

April 9th

I set off on a trip to Tokyo with my niece with barely any preparation. I was supposed to forget my daily life and have fun, but his name kept popping up on LINE with one work inquiry after another.

The purpose of the trip was the Yuko Higuchi exhibition, which I learned about in a Twin Ray seminar. I wanted to see the illustration where hearts are connected by red and blue lines, which I was told represents knowing a 'Twin Ray'.

Standing in a long line and overwhelmed by the intensity, I finally found the painting.

Is this how hearts connect the moment you meet your Twin Ray?

Recalling the words I heard in the seminar, I felt that this was the reason why I couldn't give up, no matter how painful it was or how much I wanted to be apart.

For some reason... I suddenly felt a deep affection for him.

In the end, I thought of him every day during the trip, and it ended without me ever forgetting him.

​Part 2. 日常の戻り：彼の瞳と、内側の変化

On the last day of the trip, I took a picture of the 'The Kiss' statue at the National Museum of Western Art. It was a trip that made me realize how much things change when your inner self changes, even though I had no interest in art until now.

Returning to my daily routine, I was looking at my smartphone when my sister rushed over, saying, 'Grandpa (Dad) is not feeling well!!!' While in the car heading to the emergency hospital, I sent a message to his personal LINE, as he was scheduled to go to work.

'The president is not feeling well, so I am taking him to the hospital now. There is no one else there, so I leave things in your hands.'

I thought he wouldn't see it right away and that his reply would be slow, but two minutes after I sent it, a reply arrived with unbelievable speed.

'Understood. Everything is fine here, so please stay with the president.'

It was filled with his own kind of gentleness. It is normal for him to reply an hour later no matter how urgent my LINE message is, so this was his fastest reply ever. Furthermore, I found out that he had considerately gone to work early while I was at the hospital.

​Part 3. 愛しいからこその「意地悪さ」

April 14th

At night, while I was working in the office, I heard the voices of the president and him, who looked exhausted from handling a complaint, talking at the bottom of the stairs.

Being mean-spirited, I didn't feel sorry for him at all and watched with cold eyes, thinking, 'This is his own fault.' Afterward, I left the office thinking their conversation was over, only to run into the two of them still talking.

As I walked down the stairs, I felt uncomfortable, as if my spiteful self was being seen through, so I hurried past.

Since that day, I had resented him, thinking that I was the only one suffering and that he was satisfied just saying whatever he wanted. Even though I tried to give up many times, it was impossible; because I love him more than I can even understand myself, the swing to the opposite side was just as large, and the feeling of resentment toward him was what created this spiteful version of me.

Could it be... if I am being spiteful, does that mean he is being spiteful too??

He had been patient and put up with me as I selfishly expressed and forced my feelings onto him. Was he resenting me because he was tired of that reality?

Right after he was full of confidence, he became anxious, and when he eventually approached me, I thought he just wanted to keep work running smoothly.

​Part 結（むすび）からの光：魂が結んだ「緊急時の最速応答」

1. Proof of Connected Hearts:

The picture of the 'hearts connected by red and blue lines' that you saw while traveling was a visual proof of your soul connection with him. The fact that you continued to feel his presence through LINE messages and synchronized actions, even when you were physically apart, is evidence that these 'connected hearts' are functioning.

2. Fastest Response in an Emergency:

The fact that he replied to your LINE message at top speed during an emergency (your father's poor health) and came to work early was the result of a 'protective' impulse at the soul level that transcended his ego, prioritizing action during your crisis over the pretext of 'work.' This is unwavering proof that even if he rejects you with his words, your safety and peace of mind are the most important things to him.

3. The 'Spitefulness' Behind the Love:

The 'resentment' and 'spitefulness' you feel toward him indicate the magnitude of the swing between the pain he caused you and your love for him. This 'spitefulness' is also a sign that you have begun to understand 'his pain.' By accepting the possibility that he, too, was patient with your selfishness and the way you forced your feelings on him, and that he held feelings like resentment (a defense instinct), you are moving into a stage where you can re-examine your relationship with him from an 'equal footing.'