When your senses are left behind, no amount of understanding will help you move

Even though you're trying your best.
Even though you're sure you're facing it properly.

For some reason, you just can't move...

Have you ever had an experience like that?

You know what you need to do.
You know what you should do, too.

And yet, you just... stop.
Like an old monitor suddenly going blank.

I was in that state for a year and a half.
Even while receiving coaching.

In fact, my self-understanding had progressed,
and I was gradually starting to see
my thought patterns and the points where I'm sensitive.

"I see, so that's how it works."
"So that's why I felt that way."

I was able to understand it in my head.

But it didn't lead to the next step.

At that time, I thought,
"It's because I'm still not doing enough."

So, I thought I just needed to understand more.
I just needed to learn more deeply.

That's how I kept increasing my knowledge.

"If I get coaching,
　I'll naturally be able to move forward."

Perhaps I also had a desire
to blindly believe
that it would be that way.

Looking back now,
what was happening there

was a gap between "understanding" and "feeling."

For example,

when you know you "should just publish the draft article,"
but for some reason, you don't feel like doing it.

When you understand that you "should just post it as a trial,"
but you still feel a sense of discomfort somewhere.

I was trying to move forward
while in that state.

Even if I thought I was convinced in my head,
my senses were not keeping up.

Even though I had a desire to respond with results
to the people who were supporting me,

I couldn't move well.

That impatience piled up,
and I became even more unable to move.

"It's just homeostasis at work"
"It's a natural phenomenon of trying to return to the original state"
"You are trying to change"

The knowledge I had learned
explained it to me like that in my head.

But somewhere,
I felt that "something was wrong..."

"The reason you can't accept it is
because you haven't experienced it yet."
I have been told that before.

I think there is some truth to that.

Perhaps,
my stubbornness
showed its face.

Even so, for the me at that time,
those words didn't feel right.
No matter what.

I know I should just do it.

Even so, I cannot move.

It wasn't that coaching itself or
what I learned was bad.

Rather,
it was a precious time that gave me
the opportunity to understand myself.

However, for me,
how to handle what I understood

was what was missing.

Before I could integrate what I understood
into my own senses,

I tried to prioritize only moving forward,
saying, "It's fine, let's just try it."

But people
sometimes cannot move on logic alone.

Action first, feelings follow later.
I know there are cases like that,
and I have experienced them.

But,
no matter how correct it is,
no matter how much you understand,

if your senses are left behind,
it is hard for it to turn into the power to move forward.

Looking back at my past self,
I was able to move much more naturally
when I felt "fun"

or when I felt "scared."

That is why, now,
rather than "whether I understood it or not,"
I focus on "what kind of feeling remains"

I try to pay a little attentionto that.

If, for example,
・You are learning but cannot move.
・You understand but cannot move forward.

If that is how
you are feeling.

It is not a problem of ability or effort.

It might just be that
"your senses haven't caught up yet."

Rather than trying to force yourself forward
or trying to break through.

What does my current self
feel uncomfortable with?

Asking yourself that question
might be one way to go.

I wrote this for my past self this time,
but

I hope it reaches others
who are stuck in the same place.

See you later!

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