How to fully master your cheat day

Thank you for visiting. I am a science-major mom raising a 2-year-8-month-old son who is just starting to talk a little, and a 5-month-old daughter.

Today was my cheat day, as I was exhausted from 24-hour childcare with two children two years apart (and my son is suspected of having a developmental disability).

By that, I don't mean a diet cheat day, but a childcare cheat day.

This is because I put my son in temporary daycare from 9:00 AM to 4:00 PM, and it was a day for me to spend time slowly at home with my 5-month-old daughter.

In the morning, I did the mold removal in the bathroom that I had wanted to do for a long time (it felt incredibly refreshing and good!), but I really had no plans for the afternoon.

I just lounged around and lazed about with my daughter.

Things I thought about after spending the day like that. They are,

It wasn't a feeling of, 'I'm fully recharged and ready to do my best again,' but rather my heart felt restless, and it wasn't a pleasant feeling.

Since it was a rare cheat day, I kept my daughter's care to a minimum in the afternoon and watched YouTube videos I wanted to see while lounging around, but...

A sense of guilt, or rather, a thought of 'Is it really okay for me to be doing this?' kept following me around.

For someone like me, I'll post a sentence that made me think, 'Oh, maybe this is okay.'

These are the words of Hiroyuki, the founder of 2channel. There are also these words.

Since I think, 'Oh, I see,' when I hear words like these, I probably have the assumption that 'resting is bad' and 'I am no good if I am slacking off.'

So, the reason I spent today lazing around while watching YouTube was,

in one sense, that I was able to 'rest before I was completely exhausted'.

In the sense that I had another realization: 'I have a deep-seated belief that resting is bad,'

I reconsidered while writing on note that it was a 'good day'.

Thank you so much, note, for always providing a space that lets me organize my thoughts.

I look forward to your continued support.

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