From a book lover to hating books. 10 years later, I love them again.

For an essay to be included in my junior high school graduation album, I was made to write about my future dreams. Ever since I was in elementary school, I was a

genuine book lover, borrowing many books from the library and waking up early on weekends just to read. With that in mind, I decided to write that my dream was
to become a mystery writer. I remember writing about how I was influenced by Agatha Christie's novel 'And Then There Were None' and wanted to create works that would leave a strong impact on readers.

During my junior high and high school years, I read nothing but Agatha Christie, from series like Hercule Poirot, Miss Marple, and Tommy & Tuppence to her short stories.
However, when I was a second-year high school student, I suffered from a phenomenon where I could no longer read text, and even after my symptoms improved, I stopped reading books entirely. I had grown to hate books because they reminded me of the anxiety and unease I felt at the time. Naturally, I forgot all about my dream of becoming a writer.

Even after I started working and commuting by train for long periods became the norm, I would read manga apps or watch videos, never once thinking about reading a book on the train.

However, I became completely hooked on the reruns of the drama 'Galileo' starring Masaharu Fukuyama. Ko Shibasaki was just too cute.

Two years ago, after watching the movie 'Silent Parade', I couldn't help but pick up the original novel. And just like that, I rediscovered the joy of reading for the first time in about 10 years.

My tendency to only read Agatha Christie hasn't changed even as an adult, and frighteningly, I have now acquired every single work by Keigo Higashino (excluding essays). I'm dying to read his latest hardcover, 'Kakuhan', but since I'm currently on leave and don't have much money to spare, I'm waiting for the paperback version to be released.

I cannot thank Keigo Higashino's works enough for making me love reading again, something I once absolutely hated.

Now, even if I think about the dream of being a 'writer' again, I possess absolutely no originality to create something new, nor the ability to devise tricks or complex human relationships.

While I smile bitterly remembering my innocent junior high school dream of 'wanting to be a writer', I'm already looking forward to which Higashino book I'll read on the train today.

The reason I, a shut-in, am riding the train is for an interview, which I really hate... I want to use the second half of the train ride to review my motivation for applying.