Don't push yourself... [Essay]

Today is, let me see, the 14th day of posting on note? Wait?
I've really been bad with numbers since I was young.
This has been quite inconvenient in real life.
I admire people who are good with numbers.
It's definitely not because I've gotten old. Looking back, it's been that way since I was a girl.
Lately, when I'm embarrassed, I say, "Have I gone a bit senile?"
to cover it up, haha.

Learning is a lifelong process, but I've keenly realized that learning how to calculate is difficult once you're older.
I'd love to peek inside the minds of people who are good with numbers.

Anyway, yesterday my grandmother brain was quite exhausted, so thank you for your concern!
I am grateful for the comments from such kind people.

What was painful was that I became completely unable to draw.
I painted over the canvas in white and waited for a fresh feeling, but in the end, I couldn't draw for days, and I suffered quite a bit.

It's an exaggeration, but I thought, I'm done for...

But then, I'm like a weed.

Somehow, after that,
I was able to draw a lovely picture and felt full of energy again.

Drawing pictures, writing words.
These two things are my nutritional supplements.
In other words, I suppose I'm a person with a strong sense of self.
If these two were taken away, I feel like I would fall apart.

In my daily life, I tend to make my LINE messages and emails too long, and I know I've been a nuisance to everyone.

However, note-sama? is different.
I'm very happy if you read it, and even happier if you give me a 'like'.

To keep going for a long time, you shouldn't push yourself.

As a beginner, I didn't understand that, so I was eager to just take on the challenge.

I learned about fatigue, I learned about moderation, and I learned about myself.

Don't overdo it.

However, even while thinking that, here I am, writing at length again.

Perhaps I have been bottling things up inside for many years.