The Continuation of the Counting Chickens Before They Hatch Diary

The other day, I wrote an article like this.

Afterward, I calmed down and reconsidered, and I think I might not actually want to go viral that much.

Or rather than not wanting to go viral, I'm not interested in being evaluated by a large number of people.
I once wrote something like indie is good because it's indie, but it's not that I don't want indie things to become mainstream; I realized that perhaps I want to remain indie myself.

Otaku culture has completely become mainstream culture now, but I quite liked the underground feel of the otaku culture from a little while ago.

In short, I am an "I like being a little different from everyone else" type of person who loves that about myself, an eternal chuunibyou.

So, when I think about why I am drawn to indie or subculture stuff again, I think it's because of the sharp edges. It's like they aren't necessarily trying to be liked by everyone.

There is something they absolutely want to convey, express, or an unbendable belief there, and while it might be trivial to many people, I love seeing that person's "obsession."

In that sense, I think I like people who act with conviction, regardless of whether they are mainstream or subculture.

Therefore, even if by some mistake I were to go viral, I want to remain myself without wavering.

I repeat "I don't want to waver" many times because if I'm not careful, I'll end up drifting, wobbling, and shaking.
That is precisely why I end up thinking I have to write things that could win awards or write things that would move everyone, because I'm influenced by those around me.
That is probably not what I am aiming for.

I sometimes felt guilty, wondering if it was okay for someone with my mindset to be interacting with people who are working so hard, but I want to assert that even if our directions are different, our seriousness about 'writing' is the same... and I want to continue writing pieces that live up to that assertion.

I want to push forward in my own way. That is what I think.

Oh, where I'm aiming for might be close to Ano-chan. The persona she shows on TV is cute, yet she leaves a strong impression with her unique vibe, but then she shows a crazily intense performance at her live shows.

The Ano-chan of the note world. Not just cute, but a one-of-a-kind existence. Wait, I just thought of that on the spot, but it might actually be the best idea ever...!

First, I have to learn from Ano-chan's self-production skills.

I was feeling a bit troubled, thinking that I wasn't working hard enough because I was overwhelmed by the enthusiasm of those around me, but now that I've calmed down, I feel like I've remembered my own stance toward note.
As expected, when I write, my thoughts gradually become organized.

Well then, tomorrow, the day after, and the day after that. Let's write whatever I want.

Come to think of it, I thought that when you go to a hair salon and want a black bob, you're supposed to say 'like Suzu Hirose,' but apparently, these days people say 'like Ano-chan.'

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