Autumn, left behind by the river alone. [Creative Writing]

I just wanted to be alone for a little while,
so I ran out of the house.

A twenty-minute walk.

Looking up at the evening sky,
I sat down by the riverbank.

Cherry trees stand in a row,
as if surrounding this river.

When I come here on a sunny spring day,
it is breathtakingly beautiful,
but the cherry trees in this season look somewhat lonely.

Having finished their role as flowers,
they also look as if they are preparing
for the cold winter ahead.

Even though it was hot during the day,
the moment the sun began to set,
the wind turned cold and I shivered.

I felt a little regret
that I had run out without wearing a jacket.

There is no one walking around.

In this world that should be vast,
it feels as if I have been left all alone.

No matter how much I walk,
the road continues on,
and I should not be able to touch the edge.

Yet, the world I am left in right now
feels so narrow,
to the point where I have a premonition
that I might hit a wall if I walk just a little further.

In the midst of all this, what I am thinking about
is the reason I ran out of the house.

In the end,
no one knows
who was at fault.

Perhaps neither they nor I
were in the wrong,
or perhaps it was a mutual thing.

It may just be that
the circumstances and our respective states of mind
simply didn't align.

I felt that staying home
would only pull me deeper into the abyss,


and since I felt like I was about to be consumed
by an unresolved, gray sense of unease,
I rushed out without a second thought.

Since I was alone to begin with,
even if I was left behind,
I could somehow manage to survive.

Perhaps living life all alone
is not what I truly desire.

After zoning out for a while,
I felt a chill deep in my bones.

I wanted to feel some warmth.

I'll go home.

When I get back,
I'll simmer a soup
packed with vegetables and enjoy it.

I will
warm myself up
with my own kindness.

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