#97 Do I have to be energetic?

It is easy to get sick when the seasons change.
In the same way, my mental state becomes fragile.

I just can't seem to find any energy.
Thinking back to a few days ago, I can't find joy in anything I do.
Work, hobbies, and even writing on note.

Ah, I need to cheer up.
I need to get back on track as soon as possible.

I think that, but is it really true?
Do I always have to be energetic?

Whenever my mental state drops, I always think that.

There is meaning in periods of depression

When my mental state collapses, it is naturally very painful.
I can't find joy in anything, and I lose my motivation.

If there were clear external factors for this, like overwork or power harassment, I would think it's a problem.
However, the mental slump I am currently experiencing is nothing more than a simple wave of the heart.

There are times when I am energetic, and times when I am depressed.
And I think those times of depression also have great meaning.
Looking back, my mental state was usually weak right before I made some kind of major change.

Before I started my diet, I was also depressed and filled with self-loathing.
I overcame that hardship, decided to change myself, and lost 50kg.

When I finished writing a novel for the first time in 10 years, I was also in a mental slump.
Thinking about what I could do, I saw an advertisement at the library and was inspired to write a novel.

When things are tough and you're not doing well, it might be a sign of evolution.
You get depressed, become introspective, re-examine yourself, and find a way forward.

Being positive is good, but I think there are things you can only see when you are looking backward.I will write it again, but it is very painful when my mental state is poor.
It is painful, but
I want to somehow accept this mental slump.That is why I am writing this article now.

It's okay to have times when you don't have energy

Of course, it is not good to push a negative atmosphere onto others.
If I could, I would want to be alone, but if I can't, I have to muster up what little energy I have and just get through it.
But please, let me write dark articles on note.

Since we are human, there will definitely be times when we get depressed.
Because it is precisely because there are times of depression that we can enjoy the times when we are energetic.
So, it's okay to have times when you don't have energy.

There is no need to deny yourself when you don't have energy.
The fact that there are times when you don't have energy is probably because you are always working hard at various things.
Your heart, tired from working too hard, might be telling you to "rest."

I don't know when my energy will return, but
there must be good things waiting for me on the other side of this tunnel.
Believing that, I want to accept myself even when I have no energy.