I'm Alive - Episode 12: Delivering Gifts to P-chan, Who Has Become a Sleeping Beauty

August 2nd. Two days have passed since the second last-minute emergency surgery. It is now the fifth day of hospitalization.

I packed a bag in the emergency family lodging room, intending to go deliver various things that P-chan likes.
The first thing was music. Every time I went to the ICU, I couldn't help but be bothered by the music playing in P-chan's room. My heart rejected the nursery rhymes that sounded like the ones P-chan used to listen to when she was a baby.
Thinking, 'This won't do!', I did some research, and the music I chose for P-chan was Mozart, which is said to be good for the brain.


“She has been playing the piano since she was very little, so she loves classical music. Could you play this for her?”

I handed the Mozart CD to the nurse.
The second thing was a power-packed string art mandala given to me by my friend Yacchan. Yacchan is a 'color teacher.' It seems she made it by infusing the power of color into the string art mandala.
I felt like I could hear the nurse's inner voice asking, 'Are you okay, Mom?', but I didn't let it bother me.

While she was being managed in the ICU, I couldn't be by her side the whole time. I was constantly thinking about how I could deliver courage and hope to P-chan, who was unconscious, and what I could do to help her get better.

I have been a mother to this child for nine years. I am her custom-made mother. I have pride as a mother, knowing that P-chan chose me to be born.

“This is a good luck charm to help her get better!”

I answered brightly and placed the rainbow-colored string art mandala that Yacchan had made on the upper right side of P-chan's bed.

“The powerful string art mandala Yacchan made and Mozart's music therapy will definitely work!”

I believed only in the

“YES!”within myself.

To be continued in Episode 13