I became a semi-regular employee. The story of how I kept moving forward despite being full of struggles.

【I became a semi-regular employee】

Hello, I'm Rai!

I, who was working as a user at a Type A support office, have
become a "semi-regular employee" starting in November!

More than the fact that I was "promoted,"
the road to get here was truly long.

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■ There was a time when I was "scared" of working outside

I suffer from:
• Psychogenic urinary frequency
• Reactive hypoglycemia

Because of this,

I had a lot of anxiety about
"situations where I can't go to the bathroom"
"situations where I have to move without being able to eat"
I didn't feel like I could do vacation rental cleaning or postering.

From the day it was decided I would go, I felt a constant, heart-tightening anxiety.
"Will I be okay...?"

"Will I be a burden...?"
But even so, I went.
At first, I was scared. But,

I was able to properly tell the staff, "I need to go to the bathroom."

Just doing that made the day a success.
It was a step where I could acknowledge myself.

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■ When I tried it, I found I "could actually do it"

With vacation rental cleaning,

I was convinced that "once I finish cleaning the toilet, I can't use it anymore," but

in reality,
it's fine to use it, and I can just wipe it again.

This experience of realizing that "my assumptions were making reality painful"
was huge for me.

And I realized something.
"It's okay if I can just hold on for an hour"

It's okay if I can't do everything in a day.

It doesn't have to be perfect.

It's okay to go little by little.
This way of thinking helped me move forward.
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■ And then, to the survey at the airport

In October, I also challenged myself to do a survey at the airport.

The night before, I was incredibly depressed and

I seriously thought, "I can't go tomorrow."

But when I woke up in the morning, I was strangely able to move.
And the first person I spoke to

answered me right away.

"I'm doing things I thought I couldn't do."
At that moment, my chest felt warm.

Even with international flights, even when I was rejected,

I was able to smile and reset by saying "Thank you!"

It was so unexpected, but
I was strong.

That day, I got 12 responses.
I was praised for doing great for my first time,

and that built up my confidence even more.
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■ And then, to semi-regular employee

This accumulation was recognized,

and I was promoted to semi-regular employee.

Now, I've started working until 18:30.
But strangely, work is more fun than before.

Being able to update the "me who couldn't do things"
is just purely happy.

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■ To those who have struggles in life

I think this.

Even if you have struggles in life,

even if you have more anxiety than others,

even if you have weak parts,
it's still okay to move forward.
It's okay to be slow.

It's okay to take small steps.

It's okay to be supported by someone.
It's okay.
You can truly change.

Because I was that way.
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I would be happy if I could be a source of hope for everyone!

Rai