I'm glad our eyes are on the front

I'm really glad.

I have been working for many years
with the goal of helping people who dislike photography
to "take photos of themselves,"
but most people
say, "I don't want to see myself in photos."
Without exception, I was the same.

Like, ugh,
I hate this part, I hate that part, I hate all of it,
it's gross,

and
I would just focus
on all my complexes.

However,
when I threw this phenomenon
at my reliable presence lately,
my dear klutz,

"But you know, you live every day exposing that face and that body."

is what
I was told.
A shudder.

I am truly
glad that our eyes are on the front.
I'm glad the world isn't lined with mirrors.
I'm glad we are structured so we can't see ourselves.

I'm glad there is a mechanism
to "not be conscious of it"
and to "be able to forget."

And yet,
through the tool of photography,
through the tool of video,
humans
have gained the means to see themselves.

It is a sad event.
In them,
everything about yourself
is captured
completely.

Your way of life
is captured just like that in real-time.

Photos are a barometer for knowing your "current" self.
Don't you think?
What do you think
when you look at a photo of yourselftaken recently?

I
gradually gained weight over the two years since giving birth,
my upper arms became sturdy,
and my double chin became quite prominent,
and while I think "Ugh,"
I like myself enough
to even post the photo.

More than that,
I just think,
myself in the photo with my son
with such a smile,
the brightly colored dress I bought recently
that is great!! That's good!!
and
that's all I think.

If it were the old me,
I might have worried about the negative points
and quickly touched them up with an app.
And
maybe that's how I maintained my mental health.

Now,
I leave this photo of my sturdy upper arms,
and I look forward to
what kind of results
I will get from kickboxing.
Heh, just you wait, I think.
Even though I've only been once. Lol

I've realized this after working for 10 years.
People change suddenly.
They change significantly all of a sudden.
They change at an unbelievable speed.

Having witnessed many such people,
each time I would be envious,
thinking how nice, how nice, while biting my fingers,
but now I've finally broadened my perspective,
thinking, no, I can do that too.

For those who cannot look at their own photos, or don't want to see them

・Thinking that you won't change
・Not doing

perhaps you believe in that.
I don't think that's a bad thing,

it's just that that's the state you're in,
but somehow when you're in that state,
you tend to perceive everything as evil.
So, I think it's emotionally painful.

That is what I think when I look back on myself.

Anyway,
it's nutrition, isn't it?
You're just lacking it.
Just do that first.

Then,
I feel like you won't react so strongly to those 'doskoi' photos.
If you're malnourished,
your feelings won't grow.

That's what I think.