"To My Fragrant Self"—A story about how I, exhausted by love, learned to want to fall in love again
Does falling in love make you happy? — How I, who tried too hard, returned to being a "fragrant woman"
[Memories of painful love]
I believed that "falling in love makes you happy," but I have experienced over 100 defeats in love.
I have experienced over 100 defeats in love.
I wore myself out, heart and body, repeating love affairs until I finally lost everything.
Hurting in love, my life falling apart. I didn't want to fall in love anymore, I didn't want to be involved with anyone—
I didn't want to fall in love anymore, I didn't want to be involved with anyone—
One day, while feeling that way, I encountered the word "compost".
[The beginning of a fragrant life]
Composting is an eco-friendly, simple way of living alongside natural bacteria that decompose food waste.
an eco-friendly, simple way of living.
I bought a Muji trash can and some black soil,
and started a small habit of mixing food waste into the soil every day.
What surprised me was that it wasnot smelly at all—and above all, that my heart was gradually healing.
And, above all, that my heart was gradually healing.
My life became organized, my heart found peace, and one day I realized,
"...Huh? It smells sweet, like candy."
No matter how many times I checked, it was indeed coming from my own body.
[Learning to love myself, I wanted to fall in love again]
I don't know the scientific basis for it.
But as my heart was healed along with a sustainable lifestyle,
I began to think, "I want to fall in love again."
This time, not a love where I fight with someone, not a love where I just want to be filled,
but a love where I can cherish myself, my partner, and the environment.
Without trying too hard, being natural.
As a woman who smells good, I want to laugh with someone again.
That is what I am thinking right now.
[Love that doesn't require effort brings happiness]
Back then, every time I fell in love, I was desperate,
and the more desperate I was, the more my heart and body fell apart.
But now I understand.
A sense of happiness in the heart becomes a fragrance.
And that fragrance attracts new relationships.
The real key to love is not "how hard you can try" but
"how much you can avoid trying too hard."
[To you who read this]
When you are tired of love, please try to have the "courage to step away from love."
The days you spend in comfort will surely return you to your "fragrant self" once again.
Don't push yourself.
Laugh when you want to laugh, eat delicious food, and feel the air around you.
And someday, when something fragrant suddenly buds within you again—
that might just be the signal for your next love.