[Introduction to Yamaoku AI Research Institute] The day I faced an overwhelming 'difference in capacity.' Survival strategies after a commoner meets a genius

Basking in overwhelming light, I realize the depth of my own shadow

There are people in this world who race through life at an unimaginable speed. The other day, I read an article by Yamaoku AI Research Institute, who achieved the feat of writing 1,000 articles in 60 days (about 17 articles a day!). What is even more surprising is the depth of their generosity, as they decided to donate 50 yen for every comment received, even though it was their own celebration. It's amazing, truly amazing.

↓Overview of the 1,000-article achievement charity event↓

But at the same time, a dark, muddy emotion welled up in my heart.
It was self-loathing, thinking, 'Compared to that, what am I...' Actually, I had also just reached a milestone of 1,000 'likes' on my pinned article and 10,000 total 'likes' recently. But at that time, I just shouted about my own joy and savored it all by myself. Shamefully, the idea of giving back to someone else didn't even cross my mind.

A goat does not envy an elephant's stomach

I almost blamed my own immaturity, thinking, 'Our capacities as human beings are just too different.' But when I'm about to blame my 'personality' or 'magnanimity' with moralizing thoughts like that, I think of animals. For example, a goat doesn't look at an elephant's huge stomach and get depressed, thinking, 'How small I am.' They are just living in a way that suits their own 'structure' as a species, without forcing anything.

I felt the same way when I watched children playing in a sandbox during my time as a nursery teacher. Even if they envied a child who brought a big bucket, in the end, the small cup that fits in their own hands is the easiest to use for making mud dumplings. People like those at Yamaoku AI Research Institute have already built a huge ecosystem (structure) to give back to others. That is why I interpreted this as a time to correctly understand the size and structure of my own vessel, rather than panicking and trying to 'make my vessel bigger.'

Living a gritty life with the capacity of a soy sauce dish

Even if I understand in my head that it's a structural issue, I still feel frustrated and hate my own smallness. While I say it's for the animals on the farm, I end up being overwhelmed by my own daily tasks and desire for approval. But if I put aside the pretty words, that is my real current location. I can't suddenly become a magnificent elephant, nor can I become a saint who embraces everything.

My current vessel might still be about the size of a soy sauce dish at a sushi restaurant. But a soy sauce dish has its own proper role. For now, instead of forcing myself to expand my vessel, I will try to collect 'likes' and 'thank yous' that overflow from that small vessel, even if it's a gritty process. I believe that the very fact that I noticed the overwhelming difference in capacity and felt a sense of discipline is proof that I have grown just a little bit.

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Tell me your 'small vessel' episode

Everyone has nights where they compare themselves to someone else and feel depressed, thinking, 'I'm so small.' But those incomplete, human-like parts are actually what make you most charming and what create empathy in others. So, today I have a small question for everyone.

Do you have a specific episode where you recently fell into self-loathing, thinking, 'Wow, I'm so small-minded!'? The other day, as a thank you for helping me with work, I bought coffee and carbonated drinks and asked the other person to choose, but they chose the coffee (which I wanted to drink), and I inwardly thought, 'Seriously?', which is truly a soy sauce dish-sized capacity (lol). Please tell me your 'small vessel' episode in the comments section!