Sole proprietors can't receive money! The root of this belief was my mother's words.
Since becoming a sole proprietor, your income has decreased, hasn't it?
If you had stayed a company employee...
You could have even received a bonus...
My father quit his job as a company employee when I was in my third year of junior high school and became a sole proprietor.
Although he was ambitious, my father, who only had a high school diploma, could not become a manager and stopped at being a section chief. I think he could not forgive the fact that people he deemed unworthy of being managers were promoted to management positions.
Then, hearing from someone that there was a good job opportunity, he decided to take the plunge.
Despite my mother's attempts to persuade him otherwise, he went independent.
I still remember it vividly even now.
Suddenly, he gathered the family in the living room with the sunken kotatsu and told us he was quitting his job.
My father's face was triumphant.
I'm going to start this kind of business!
I could feel his passion overflowing toward the future. Because he had felt stifled as a company employee, he must have been holding onto hope for the future.
However, as a junior high student, I was so anxious that I cried alone. What would happen from now on? I couldn't hold any hope for the future.
I have a strong memory of my mother staring down at the floor.
And shortly after he went independent, he was swindled out of money. It was a large sum for our family.
From then on, our poverty accelerated.
There were many things I had to endure during my high school life.
Our family has no money.
Many events occurred that were enough to imprint this into my subconscious.
Time passed, and I quit my job as a civil servant and chose the same path as my father.
Yes, as a freelance web writer.
I had always felt a sense of guilt for becoming a sole proprietor, the same thing that had caused my mother so much suffering.
The guilt of reviving memories of poverty for my mother
I will probably struggle with money just like my father
I kept imagining such a future.
That is why I created a reality where I cannot receive money. Because thoughts become reality.
But today, I participated in Mr. Sueyoshi's workshop and realized something.

That it was just an assumption.
My father certainly struggled.
But that is separate from my own challenges.
My mother was always supporting me.
I was the one who was carrying guilt without being grateful. And I had arbitrarily decided that sole proprietors cannot receive money.
I will try letting go of those things.
Give value and
receive gratitude
Give love and
receive love
Words said to me by someone important.
I can receive money as a sole proprietor!
When I imagined such a future, I felt lighter and somehow excited✨
As expected, Mr. Sueyoshi's workshops are full of realizations!
I have been freed from a major curse.
The "Courage to Post" activation community is accepting applications through the end of August!
I look forward to your participation.
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