Delusional Essay: Emotional Rollercoasters and Impermanence

Is there a phrase you hold dear in life?

She said that, and brought her glass to her lips.

I thought for a moment, then smiled.

There are two.

May I ask what they are?

Of course.

The ice made a small sound.

One is 'emotional rollercoaster'.

She looked a little surprised.

Is that your motto?

Yes.

That's unusual.

Isn't it?

I gave a wry smile.

Actually, I've failed quite a lot because of this.

When something good happens, I get carried away.

When things don't go well, I get more depressed than necessary.

I've been unable to sleep because of a single word from someone,

and conversely, I've felt like I could change the world with a small success.

Thinking about it now, I suppose I was being tossed about by my emotions.

So, every time something happened,

"I was on an emotional roller coaster again."

I have been telling myself that.

She nodded quietly.

"So that's why it's your motto."

"That's right."

"It's a reminder."

There was a brief pause.

"And the other one?"

"The impermanence of all things."

She smiled slightly.

"Those are two very different-sounding phrases."

"Actually, they are connected in my mind."

I slowly swirled my glass.

"Everything that has form will eventually change."

Both happy things.

And sad things.

Successes.

And failures.

Nothing can stay exactly the same forever.

That is why I have been thinking lately.

It is not about telling yourself not to get caught up in the highs and lows.

It is okay to feel those highs and lows.

Just do not take up permanent residence within those emotions.

On happy days, truly be happy.

On sad days, truly feel down.

But eventually, those feelings will change their form.

Because all things are impermanent.

That is why I,

always carry these two concepts,

side by side with me.

She,

"So, how about now?"

asked me.

I felt a jolt, and,

"Well... right now..."

"...I am... having my highs and lows."

I replied...