What color is bittersweet?

Bittersweet might be the space between 'lonely' and 'happy'.

That thought suddenly crossed my mind.

My second-year middle school son's friend has started speaking to me in polite language lately.
Even though he used to talk to me casually until he was in elementary school.
He even learned how to give a polite nod.

He doesn't wave at me like he used to anymore.

I feel a sense of loneliness.

But, his world is expanding, and he has grown up.
When I think of that, I certainly feel happy, too.

So, I think that when 'lonely' and 'happy' mix together, it must become 'bittersweet'.

What color would that mixed color be?
Perhaps it's a color like blue and orange blending together, the way day turns into night.

Whenever I bring something to an end,
I sometimes get a tightening feeling in my chest.

Every time that happens,
I suddenly feel anxious, thinking,
'Maybe I actually regret this.'

Worrying about this and that.
Even for things I decided with great effort,
'Could it be that I made a mistake?'
I feel impatient like that.

But, surely, that's not it.

There is also 'happiness' there, too.
A feeling of relief as well.

I am properly making my own choices.

When you let go of something, something new comes in.

That's how things are made.

Or so I think, anyway.

Let's believe and move forward.

Added on 2026.5.11
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