How to Deal with Feelings of Anxiety | Day 7 of Maternity Leave

Hello! I'm Himawari, and I'm expecting my first child in early November!

Day 7 of maternity leave.
I couldn't stand being at home anymore, so I went to a nearby Starbucks.

I ran out of things to do already and started overthinking unnecessary things,
so I went out for a change of pace.

When I have time, I tend to worry about the future,
but as I was casually looking at Threads,
various information about childbirth caught my eye,
and suddenly, feelings of anxiety came flooding in.

Will the baby be born safely...?
Will I be able to endure the pain...?
What if something unexpected happens...?

I'm feeling gloomy, worrying about things that haven't even happened.

Even though I tell myself there's no point in worrying,
I find myself consumed by those thoughts before I know it.

My natural personality combined with maternity blues
has left me feeling quite down.

When I was working, I kept thinking I wanted to rest and take it easy,
but now that I actually have the time, different worries have emerged.

Is that just how it is? (Sigh)

When I shared my anxiety with my husband, he said, "I see you're feeling anxious," and "You're not alone," which was incredibly supportive and I'm truly grateful.

Thinking that all sorts of worries and anxieties will likely continue to come up,
I hope to become someone who can accept those feelings in myself.