If possible, I'd like to be placed in a spot where I can bloom from the start

A line from the drama, "The Flower I Like Best."

Tsubaki-san said it hesitantly, speaking in fragments.

"People say things like, 'Bloom where you are planted,' but even if you're told that, there are some flowers that just won't bloom from the start, you know."

Exactly!
To begin with, if the place you're planted in isn't a place where you can bloom at all, then what are you supposed to do? If possible, I'd like to be placed in a spot where I can bloom from the start.

Searching for a place where I can be planted and bloom, so that one day, I can have a home I want to return to.

Midori-chan said,
I don't fight anymore, I don't get hurt anymore, and I've become able to buy my own house.

Tsubaki-san and Midori-chan were talking about that.

I also felt that I don't fight anymore, I don't get hurt anymore, I have my own house, I have my own car, and I feel like I've gotten closer to the 'normal' I used to admire. That's what I was able to think.

It feels like quite a lot of time has passed since I came to the world of note, but it seems it will be three full years by the end of January next year.

At first, I was very confused, sad, and in pain, wondering why I wasn't born in a land where flowers could bloom. The soil was sparse, thin, and there was little water and little fertilizer. Everything felt like it was just a tiny bit for me.

But,

I also don't fight anymore, I don't get hurt anymore, I have my own house, I have my own car—well, that might be misleading, it's my husband's house and a car he bought for me, but still. I feel like I've gotten closer to the 'normal' I used to admire.

By being able to think that, I was able to reaffirm that I can now become an adult and go to a safe place, and that I can create a safe place.

A girl in my son's class once asked me this when I was out watching over the children on their way to school. This was back when they were in first grade.

"My son gets woken up and driven to school, so why don't I have that?"

As a neighborly auntie, I gave her the words I would have wanted to hear myself. I don't know if there is a correct answer to how to respond.

"I wonder why. If your mom doesn't wake you up, wake yourself up. Is there bread or something around? Eat that, leave the house at 7:30, and come to school."

She told me she couldn't read a clock, so I explained in detail that she should leave the house when the short hand reaches 7 and the long hand reaches 6.

"It's sad when things aren't done for you, but you have no choice but to do them yourself."

She nodded slightly. Although she comes and goes, she is still connected to school now that she is in fifth grade. There is nothing I can do for her, but I want to keep looking at her with a kind gaze, thinking, 'Do your best!'

It is no exaggeration to say that I have been kept alive by kind gazes, as I know how heartening they can be.

If possible, I would like to be placed in a spot where I can bloom from the start, but for those who couldn't, there is a reality where they must struggle desperately to survive, and while that reality makes my heart feel like it's going to break, I have become an adult and am living in the present, and I wonder if my life is rejoicing in that.

*Regarding her case, it has already been reported to the school, and the content of our conversation has been shared.

I went to Kyoto as a preview trip for next year's school excursion! The souvenirs are all just food. And the sloppiness of the photos is just something else. Lol