Today's Secret Pocket Money Diary (8)

When I woke up this morning, the first thing I thought was, 'I couldn't write my note yesterday...'

Continuing something every day like this seems easy, but it's surprisingly difficult. Between childcare and housework, keeping up with something for myself really takes a lot of energy.

Yesterday, we went cherry blossom viewing from the morning! But my son was fussy, so we couldn't leave for a while. Even while enjoying the cherry blossoms, I was constantly thinking in the back of my mind, 'What should I write?' and 'How should I share it?'

The 'secret pocket money plan' I'm working on now isn't just about making money for me.

It's more like a confidence-recovery project, where I can 'choose for myself, decide for myself, and act for myself.' Even though I have an FP qualification, I've been struggling with a 'feeling of not being able to do anything' ever since I became a housewife... maybe this is the reaction to that.

Yesterday, I earned 100 yen through my note in just 15 minutes.
The amount is small, but the feeling of thinking, 'I was able to reach someone again today,' was the best reward. My likes have increased, my Threads followers have passed 70, and I've received some happy comments.

Thinking that my 'sharing' might be a 'trigger' for someone else makes my heart feel at ease.
In the evening, I held my daughter's hand as we went to the supermarket. I'm healed every day by her profile as she says things like, 'Mom, I'd like fish today.'

Thanks to the side job I've been building up little by little, I'm starting to feel my own 'strength' bit by bit.

Today, I want to applaud myself as I continue to take small steps like that.