The Desire to Travel and Lingering Thoughts

The latest volume of "Solo Hotel," which I introduced the other day, was released, so I read it right away.
Since it just came out, I will avoid spoilers, but it was very good this time as well.

As I turned the pages, a feeling of wanting to go somewhere began to bubble up.
But then I feel a little sad when I think about how I just started a new job and wonder when on earth I will be able to go on a trip.

In this story, the descriptions of travel and hotels were of course good, but a different scene remained in my heart.
There is a scene where the protagonist looks back on her past words and actions and worries about them.
Reading that part made me feel somehow very pained.

Although my situation is different from hers, I feel like everyone has moments where they look back with similar regrets, or thoughts like,
"Did I really do that?"

I can make any number of excuses, like I didn't mean any harm, I didn't know in the first place, or that wasn't my intention.
But when I think that my past words and actions might have been a source of pressure for someone, or might have become like a thorn stuck in their heart that they couldn't remove,
I feel a sense of helplessness.

That said, there is nothing I can do about it now.
In the end, I think I have no choice but to wait for time to solve it.
Even if the wound is still raw now,
I thought that I have no choice but to wait for the day when it eventually forms a scab and peels off naturally.