A diary of a foolishly endearing unrequited love. | Adrift in bubbles.
I like people who like things differently than I do.
When we go out to eat,
and I say, "This food is delicious,"
I like the person who replies,
"I really like this plate."
To have such delicious food in front of us,
and for the first thing to come out of their mouth to be a comment about the plate.
When we watch the same anime,
and I say, "I like the art style,"
I like the person who replies,
"The sound design in this work is great, isn't it?"
I was watching with my "eyes,"
but you were watching with your "ears" right beside me.
I find myself drawn to people
who see the world through different "eyes" than I do.
When I fall in love,
I want to know what that person "loves" too.
What kind of "world"
do you see?
What kind of things
shake your heart?
I
wanted to know what you 'like'.
That's why
I say things like, 'Tell me your recommendations.'
Because I love you.
You probably didn't notice, did you?
I was happy
that you talked about the movie I like,
even though you're like that.
I wondered if
you had even a little bit of interest in me.
That's why I also
wanted you to know what I 'like'.
That's why
I wanted you to listen to my recommendations, too.
But
It took three days for the reply,
"I'll watch it when I have some time."
I feel like a fool
for having expected anything while waiting for your reply.
Maybe
it was just an excuse to invite me out.
Maybe
you were agonizing over how to ask me.
Such delusions are foolish.
To you,
it was just an ordinary conversation, wasn't it?
I'm sorry
for getting so carried away all by myself.
Just remembering it makes me feel embarrassed.
Every single one of your words and actions
moves my heart.
Even though I worry about the eyes of others,
by the time I realized it,
I was so absorbed that I couldn't see anything around me.
As if to make the world look both brilliant and faded,
it 'dominates' my everything.
I was giving my all
to 'love'.
Once I step away from that place,
how foolish it all looks.
However,
thinking of someone
and being able to give it my all,
being able to love someone,
that is not something to be taken for granted,
and I think it is proof that I have cherished and faced it
ever since that day it poured down on me suddenly like lightning.
I also find that version of myself
'endearing'.
I think
your "like" is also very wonderful.
After all, you fell in "love" with a truly wonderful person
and tried your very best to keep "loving" them.
2025.09.14 Haru no Mugi