A gold star for myself.

For those who read my posts regularly, this might be something you've heard a thousand times, but
I want to give a gold star to the version of me that used to put an X on myself.

I have always cherished that feeling.
It is okay for me to be me.

Right now, I am practicing that.

Things are amazing these days; there are even apps that turn your lyrics into songs.
If you'd like, please take a listen.

[Lyrics]

I used to hate myself
I couldn't do anything
I was inferior to others
I was full of flaws
I hated that version of myself
I was afraid of being disliked by others
So I would put myself down before I could get hurt
I kept putting X's on myself

But now it's different
I thought I had nothing,
but I realized that I actually 'have' things

I used to count only the things I couldn't do,
but there were so many things I could do

I wasn't inferior to others,
I was just different

I was scared and kept putting X's on myself,
but deep down, I always wanted to give myself a gold star

Little by little, little by little
I give myself a gold star

It is okay for me to be me

Seeing my own feelings turned into a song,
combined with the melody and voice,
brought me to tears.

To the me who kept putting X's on everything,
I have been adding gold stars one by one,
repeating it over and over again.

And finally,
I feel like I've made it this far.

However,
I have only just reached the point of going from minus to zero.

But that means,
it is finally time for things to 'start from here'.

From here on out,
I want to find out,
little by little, how I want to be.

That is what I think.

The power of a song is amazing.

Until now, I only thought 'Gold star!' in my head,
but by actually hearing it as a voice and words,
I feel like it finally reached me.
Let's say it out loud.

I am a gold star!!!
A perfect score!

I want to,
love myself more and more.