Why I decided to start writing again

I am mirari.

Today is the memorable first post.
I thought for just a moment about what to write, but I think I will just let the words flow as they come to mind.

It was nearly 20 years ago that I first started a blog and began writing. It was just a diary-like blog, but it felt so good to be able to express exactly what I was thinking in writing.

It was also around this time that light finally began to shine on my days, which had turned monochrome following a heartbreak.

Friends would read and leave comments, and it was a process where I gradually found confidence in myself while experiencing the joy of being 'praised'.

I think the reason I was able to decide to try marriage hunting was because I had regained my confidence by starting to write, and because I could trust in my own strength to never give up.

Now, I am part of a four-person family with two middle-school-aged boys, and I spend my days in an interesting way where bizarre things happen constantly, enough to never get bored.

That I have become someone who can find amusement in things not going according to plan is something the me from back then would find unimaginable—I would be a completely different person—and the fact that I am living while feeling richness in that makes me think about how interesting life is.

I am just a very ordinary person working a full-time part-time job in my neighborhood. But to get here, I took a detour that was far too long, and I also got things tangled up quite a bit. It really took time to let go of my excessive pride.

The reason I am now living a life where I can feel that my bizarre daily routine is rich and interesting, and that I am spending my time healthy in both mind and body, is because the thought that I absolutely do not want to give up on my life is always, always in my heart.

Writing that I am the source of richness and the creator might be a bit much (laughs), but when you think about it, that's only natural, isn't it? Who creates your own life, if not yourself?

I am happy now, but I want to create an even more interesting and rich world, and because I want to clarify more about what I want to do, the reason I wanted to start writing here is the main reason I opened this site.

There is only one rule for myself when I write here.

To write with clear words that are straight to myself, without lies and without deception.

My heart is racing at what kind of world will be spun from there.

Ah, I'm looking forward to writing. This is nice, this feeling. I'm going to let this feeling, this sensation, soak into my body, memorize it, and cherish it.

Thank you for today as well.