How to Behave as Someone Aspiring to Music | Although I Am a Part-Time Lecturer | Take Social Values and Words as Mere References | Create Your Own Path

To those working
To those doing housework
To those who woke up in the morning
To those who woke up in the afternoon
To those who were able to say "have a good day" to their children

Everyone
thank you for your hard work

It has been half a year since I became a part-time lecturer

I ended up working at the same school
longer than I had initially planned

and my duties have been gradually increasing.

At first, I was only supposed to teach a few subjects, but

・I am asked to do administrative work during my free time
・I am asked to participate in team teaching for classes other than my own
・Additions and changes to the subjects I am responsible for

In addition to such
requested tasks

・Handling conflicts between children

and other
emergency-type matters
have increased
the more I have built relationships of trust with the children.

Regarding these kinds of issues,
I inform the management teachers whenever I feel concerned
(otherwise, I would feel uneasy,
and my teaching would suffer, which would be counterproductive)

As a countermeasure,
for example,
if I go over my hours,
I adjust my working hours on another dayand so on,
which I am allowed to do.

By the way,
・Researching teaching materials
・Preparing for classes
・Processing grades
and such
I think fall within the scope of my duties as a part-time lecturer.

And then, and then

Other than this,
as a music professional,work that takes up a lot of mass

school events (choral festivals)is one.

Work related to school events (choral festivals) includes

[Outside working hours]
・Selecting choral pieces
・Arranging sheet music
・Creating part-specific CDs
・Creating videos for conducting practice
・Creating teaching materials
・Practicing accompaniment

[During working hours]
・Guidance during choral practice other than music class
・Auditions for conductors and accompanists
・Guidance for conductors and accompanists

and so on.

Certainly,
to handle these,it takes a lot of energy
and a huge amount of timeas well.

I am human too, so
after all

"If I calculate this by hourly wage, I'm working in an incredibly exploitative way..."
"It's sooooo painful"
"Is there even any point in being part-time..."
"Management teachers, please manage things properly!"

and such,
there are times when my heart screams.

But,
onceI skip over the concept of work
and think as someone who aspires to music,

・The happiness of being able to do music in the first place
・Being able to contribute to society with the musical skills I have acquired

this mass is significant, and
originally,the happiness that can be felt deeply is thereand
I confirm that every once in a while.

Is this something that
those in creative professions might be able to understand a little?

Somehow,
"work-life balance," "black company," "white company," "overtime work," "compliance"

and so on—
these days, various words regarding work are flying around, and
I find myself lost
because I cannot put them into my own words. (Like the scream of the heart I mentioned earlier)

Because my profession is
that of a school teacher and a musician, I should have been
moving, working, and living by values that cannot be fully expressed by such words.

Therefore, I
sometimes think that I shouldn't just live aimlessly and
let myself be swayed by these kinds of words.

In other words,

"Am I happily doing music (teaching)?" Thinking about this with my own head and heart, and deciding for myself how I behave each time—

I think that is what is important.

If I don't do this for myself,
it will eventually come back to me as something unhappy. And

I feel that not only will I be unable to do music at work, but I will also come to dislike music in my private life.

"How are you now? Are you happily doing music (teaching)?" "Are you feeling burdened? Shall we take a break? Even if it's hard, is it rewarding?"

"Are you doing it for them? Or do you want to do it for them? Or should you just enjoy it together?"

I thought that I would like to
occasionally
ask myself these things.

I want to treat the changes in social values and the words flying around as mere references
and

create my own path in a way that I am satisfied with.

There is no right answer, and
it is still just an ideal theory,

but that also
feels like I am creating the path with my own hands, and
it feels good.